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ORIGINAL: onestandingstill

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ORIGINAL: LeatherBentOne

What a great post.  You are a very strong person to have gone through this and come out of it in a positive manner.  You serve as a good example for others.  I hope you find what you need and are seeking. 

Obviously, the Dom who went back on his word, then claimed he had the right to without your knowledge and consent lacked integrity as a person, much less the Dom he called himself, in my estimation.

I think your head is in the right place and Ive enjoyed your previous posts.

LBO

Thank you for your kind words.
Please don't feel sorry for me, I don't, nor do I regret my life with my first Master for one second of it.
When you look at the statistics I can agree this man seemed like a beast.
The truth is he was 85% a wonderful Master indeed.
It was the 15% of prior ingrained ways, and his selfishness that loomed over the three of us like a painful storm cloud all of us wanted to go away.
Most of the infractions were not done in premeditated malice, but rather poor impulsive choices.
I learned so very many valuable and phenomenal things sitting at this Master's feet.
I still am very thankful to have been his for the time we were afforded.
The relationship, and continual fracturing of our contract was toxic to us all. Especially him.
Believe it or not, all but 2 things have already been fully forgiven.
I wish him well in finding the path he sees but is not standing on yet with the same fever I seek to fully stand on mine.
He indeed placed my feet on my path, and tested my ability to be on it, and my desire to live on it well.
He was a good Dominant in many numerous ways.
I do not find him an evil man. Sadistic, yes, Predator, not even close.
He deserves to find his one who views the world and ranks matters of importance in the same scale he does as much as the rest of us.
I hope one day he does find his life mate, and she'll be lucky to have him if he becomes that which he tried hard to be with me.
Without this man's guidance I would not firmly know who I am and where I fit in this lifestyle I love near as deeply as I do now.
I may only be coming up on my 2 year anniversary of my awakening 2/24/07, but I have a wealth of knowledge and practical skills I've acquired from his 25 year experiences he shared with me.
I was afforded an education most don't have the opportunity to have. I'm very grateful to him for that.
Though his imperfections, and my reactions to them hindered us being together I will always value the training I was afforded in his care as the foundation of my submissiveness.
suzanne