gypsygrl
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Joined: 10/8/2005 From: new york state Status: offline
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ORIGINAL: needdiscipline23 Is it just completely lazy and immature of me to have even felt the way I did, or a typical part of growing as a submissive? I think a lot of it has to do with where a person starts. It was never about "fun" for me, and I've always taken a very serious approach to it which, of course, doesnt mean I don't have fun. Most of this, I think, is because I was pretty old before I started actively exploring this stuff, and had been through the wringer a few times. I already knew life is mostly about doing dishes and other sorts of tasks that keep the wheels turning. From the very beginning, I've always recruited Dominants into helping me do this stuff (a do-me sub, perhaps?). So, if they were coming for a visit, it was great motivation to get things all neat and tidy. I was involved with someone who would cancel alot at the last minute, and even though I was dissapointed, the dynamic still worked for me (at least for a while...I eventually got tired of his inability to follow through) because my apartment was clean and I even had some good food around because I'd make sure to have lunch for him so I still felt grateful for the extra motivation and enjoyed the food (the sort of stuff I'd never buy for myself).
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