grlneedstolearn
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ORIGINAL: RiotGirl Does anyone else go through periods where they just get down right combative with their Doms? Where they dont want to do anything they should do for no - sticking out like a sore thumb - reason?? i seem to be very very combative lately and i cant figure it out. I'm argueing constantly, i dont want to do as told, i'm telling Master no, and i'm having majorly hard times accepting when he says no. To the point where i get down right tantrumish. I am starting to annoy myself. i'm even argueing about argueing. Master will tell me not to argue and my response is "i'm not argueing, i'm debating" Its like, i want what i damn well want! And i'm not getting it. - ( I dont usually have such a damn difficult time being told No. I wanted to stay up late the other night, i wanted to watch TV and he said No and i think i sent him like 50 text messages about it. I dont want to do something this weekend, i exshausted my argue limit and THEN got out of bed to try and argue 40 minutes later about why he needs to reconsider. Its not like their big things either. If he wanted me to stand on my head, that would be reasonable to argue over. i'm starting to upset him with it. Its like every night i go into tantrum mode. Like i literally want to lay in bed and kick my legs and throw a fit. Its lame. It would be nice if i could just say "shut up kelly, you're being unreasonable" but i dont work like that. Once the emotions engage, game over. Its not just him i'm being combative with either. i dont find it major problem with others though. Screw em. Which is pretty much how i feel lately. Screw em! I'm not sure if this is what Master means when he says "you need a spanking" or "you just need to get laid" but i'd really like to figure it out and stop it. Like hell, its god damn annoying. Who wants to stay up every night until 2 am being upset, cranky, and mentally cussing ppl out? i'm not sure if i'm running on lack of sleep, making me over emtional and less rational. (that whole up till 2 am thing kind of does me in) If i'm just being a hormonal bitch........ Or if i mentally stepped back from my relationship to get a better perspective on where i want to go with it and this is the consequence? So............. if anyone else has gotten combative....... and realised why......... would you please share? And NO, i dont need to be psycho analyzed, i do that just fine myself. What i'm looking for is others who have felt the same way, figured it out, and can give me their own opionons on why they felt that way. i've found myself in situations like this before, but for me it's usually b/c i don't get home from work until around 1-1:30 am and than i play with my dom 7 hours later. Yes i can become combative and don't want to do anything that i'm told, or as my dom puts it: Your being feisty again aren't you? And by than i usually end up bound and helpless until i can calm down. i've had many moments like that and luckily for me my dom puts up with it, since it's not all the time. That's my response to yours.
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