GeekyGirl
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ORIGINAL: ownedgirlie Interesting question...I have a love/hate relationship with pain. I hate it when I'm receiving it, yet as soon as he stops I am craving more. I've come to the conclusion it is not the pain that I love, but what it represents to me - His power, his control, his authority, and my absolute vulnerability to him. When he strikes me with his belt, it HURTS, damnit! And all I want is for that horrible cutting sting to stop. And yet I love it. I love that he'll do it, despite that it hurts like hell. I love that he doesn't care that it hurts, and tells me to be quiet when I cry out, and tells me to be still and take it. I love that I have no choice but to feel pain if he wants me to feel it, and to not protest it. And when he is finished, I love that he lets me wrap myself up around his feet, and he pets my head, and that for days, even weeks, I will have lasting marks on my skin to remember the moment. He knows how I love the marks, and gives them to me as a gift. One doesn't have to be a masochist to want to enjoy or endure pain. In my case, it is a way for me to feel my smallness to him, and feel close to him. If he denied us both this because of a preconceived notion that it was "wrong" (where did that come from, anyway?), we would both be missing out on a wonderful element of our relationshp. Wow...that was just absolutely beautiful (and hot as hell too for some reason.) I feel as you do...I couldn't have explained it any better.
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"It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms you have complete power over me. So be gentle if you please, 'cause your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth and it makes me want to make you near me always."
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