WhiplashSmile
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Well so far, nearly every post made has been a passing thought of mine. A sweeping mixture of thoughts. Think everybody has tossed out some great thoughts, perspectives and advice. Dare I admit it, my Domly instincts want to reach out and save the day. However, my Domly instincts also tells me she needs more help than I alone can give her. I'm also uneasy in thoughts of this perhaps being an elaborate scam, yet at the same time truth is stranger than fiction. How many would go to such lengths to frabricate so much trouble. Whenever something has happened she's avoided me for a couple of days. Have had to corner and question about WTF is going on, and she's told me, with concern that I would be mad or what was going on was more than I could deal with. I still have a gut instinct that she's holding something back from me still, it's not something I can put my finger on fully. Just one of those things. In terms of Manipulation, there is good and bad manipulation. LOL... Yes, even us Domly Dom guys enjoy a little bit of the thrill of the chase and in the power transfer games. In a sense though, like I mentioned before I feel somewhat spoiled, perhaps not. Perhaps if I was one of those that have somehow had the time and resources to have owned and trained 100 slaves, I'd be a complete expert at this stuff by now. God, flogging a naked oiled body up is so much easier than this! LOL.. I have had my white knight moments in life, but I've never expected a damn thing in return. However, when it comes to those close to me in my life. I'll have this thing about wanting to go through Hell and back again, and I tend to work on them building up their own skillsets to better manage their own business. But, some people are lost causes. I have a half sister that falls into that category. I listen to her on the phone and try to make her look at all sides of the coin. This seems to be my bitch right now, is that I''m tossing the coin around trying like hell to see things from all angles. Face it, nobody likes to be played and it can be a painful blow to anybody's ego. I have to go with what I know, she has a history of abuse of some form, she's either has a shit load of drama or is pulling a scam (more drama). If she is scaming me, chances are she's scamed before and will again. These actions will only led to more Drama, criminal records and whatever in life. If all this is really real going on, it's not good either. She needs to somehow pull herself out of this hole of darkness. Best I can do is spank a little ass and point her off in the right direction. Perhaps make her stop and see whatever ugly is going on in life. While I myself, can not 100% fix this girl. I can at the very least give her some food for thought. Perhaps a haunting that will carry with her for a few years as a reminder. I need to accept the worst case senarios involved, go with the common themes of stories and things she's shared with me. Who knows perhaps she's just another lost soul dieing for love and attention in this world. We all in a sense require something in our own lives. I've already let her know I have seen more flags than a NFL football game. I'm being upfront in terms of me seeing Red Flags with her. At the very least this keeps me honest with her and her aware of my trust issues. This way she knows what she is dealing with. I really did not set out to find more Drama than the shows on TNT, things just unfolded this way. To answer questions regarding physical punishment LD over the phone, I actually heard the Wacks Wacks on the body, along with breathing, whimpers and changes in voice. Then again, perhaps this was all an elaborate act or not. I myself am not used to this LD stuff, seem to be missing my copy of "Reach out and Spank somebody" long distance Domiguide. I can honesty see, and thank you, where submissives can play ping pong over personal issues in their own life. It appears there's a few ping pong balls that have posted to this thread. This backs up in part some of this girls actions. I do know one thing, if the drama can not become stabilized, this will clearly be a major problem. I do have another theory, regarding The Drama, that perhaps she testing me and is using Drama as a means to Push me away and perhaps move onto somebody else. Perhaps it's just a tactic being deployed by an elaborate game player here. LOL.. what better way to get rid of somebody then to simply overwhelm them with Drama. I can't make an real judgement calls on this, other than it's simply full of Drama right now. I know she is really a she though! LOL.. she has a beautiful voice! Not a heavy chest sounding one... So she's not some Extremely Heavy Set Women in her 60's playing games with me. LOL... Her phone number area code and exchange matches where she lives as well. There are somethings that I know are 100% real and other things that are questionable. As much as the internet brings people together, at the same time it's easy to become Cynical because of the Distance and game players.. All her pictures she's sent me all look like the same person. Have around 10-12 of them now. So if she's a picture stealer at least she's hijacked a complete set of somebody. It's a mixture of point in click shots, type you friends would take of you, along with a few proffesional style glamour shots. If it was nothing but glamor shots alone I would be more suspecious about it. I don't think I need to whip out my chemistry set and do a little more acid testing, this includes a road trip. I think I have to be prepared for the worse case situation to happen. Basically a no show with some sort of drama being the excuse. LOL.. i.e. my Ex came and burned my house down last night type of stuff.. My mind has been thinking of nearly anything and everything on this one, thoughts varied as the postings have been on here.
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