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ORIGINAL: softness

For me there are a great many things to say about your post - but something that you need to do learn to do soon is this

simply to be
 
this is something a Man very dear to me taught me, and i think it was the most imporntant thing i ever learned about giving service.
A slave is there to ease the life and times of their owner. Through service - domestic or sexual or any other - we bring comfort to our owners lives. We should, with everything we do, be aiming to make their lives easier and more comfortable.
So ask yourself this question - what use is a girl who must be constantly occupied to be happy? What companion is a girl who cannot occupy herself in a positive way when not under orders?  What kind of integrity is there in a save who does not follow the essence of an order, only its word?
I have always thought to answer those questions with - well - that it is a slave needy of much hard work.

There is a difference in DOING pleasing things for your Master and BEING a pleasing thing for your Master. You will create a far happier and more comfortable life for your Master if he sees pleasing things in everything you are and do. Imagine his joy when he realises that not only are you his devoted slave when you are at the other end of the phone - or in the eye of his webcam, but that you are also his happy devoted slave when you are away from him, when you are out with friends or shoppig or at the gym.

I dont mean to offend, but in my experience of both close and long distance relationships, the hardest part is being equally devoted to Master when you are at his feet, and when you are out bargain hunting for your new clothes. It is easy to adore and to please when you are glowing in his arms, it is quite another to love and adore that strongly when you are apart.

When you take into your heart the desire to always be the slave your Master wishs you to be, then you can make each choice based on what best serves that. If your Master wishes you to be busy, happy and fulfilled without him (as your does seem to wish judging by the orders he has given you to that effect) then you decide what would be best to serve that - staying in mopig around waiting for him - or getting on with your own busy worthwhile life so that you are lively and insteresting to him when he does want you.

there are a great many here who will disagree with me -and certainly with the statement i am about to make. I have always believed that the slaves most likely to satisfy a Master, to bring comfort and contentment to his life. Is a slave who is able to sustain herself and is not a drain on her Master. How much more precious and honourable to own something strong and independent and complete, that to own something weak and needy and dependent?

But that is just my opinion, no flames please

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ORIGINAL: softness

the slaves most likely to satisfy a Master, to bring comfort and contentment to his life. Is a slave who is able to sustain herself and is not a drain on her Master. How much more precious and honourable to own something strong and independent and complete, that to own something weak and needy and dependent?

But that is just my opinion, no flames please

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ORIGINAL: windchymes

Reading your post brought back memories of a relationship I had a few years ago.  The dynamics ran almost eerily as they did in my own LTR.  I mean, one time when he had the flu, he slept on the couch with the webcam on him, just so I could keep an eye on him...not that I could actually do anything, but it was comforting to both of us.  And I also felt the same kind of guilt about not being available to him 24/7.  I had this vision in my head that he was sitting around, moping and pining away for me, wondering when I'd be there, even though I knew logically this wasn't true, and I so loved the idea that he "needed" me. 

Every psychological and relationship-type professional in theworld will tell you that it's important to maintain a life away from your partner.  Even you know that deep down inside.  It was a struggle, but I had to almost verbally reassure myself that I SHOULD have a life and activities apart from him, that it made me a better person in that I would have things to talk to him about, things to share, and doing these things made me grow as a person. 

I can't help myself, didn't want to turn this into a downer, but.....when it came time to actually fulfill all the promises made and make it real time, he got major cold feet and called the whole thing off.  I was thankful then that I had a couple of activities outside of my job to focus on to help myself move on and get over him.  Unfortunately, even the most "perfect" of relationships can cruelly go belly up and you don't want to find yourself completely "lost at sea" and wondering where your life went.

Just keep reminding yourself that he is fine when you're out doing things and keep on doing them, struggle through.  It will get easier with time.  I hope it all works out for you.