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ORIGINAL: daddysprop247
actually in our dynamic we don't even believe in the "right to leave" bit. the one right he has given me (although he reminds me he can take it back at any time) is the right to beg release...which is basically saying i have the right to tell him i'm miserable in the relationship and wish to leave, but i am still his until he grants release, and the chances of him granting release simply because i said i was unhappy are mighty slim.

no fine print, it is the way it is, clear and simple. i disagree strongly with the idea that such ways cannot be feasibly tranferred to reality...it all hinges on the integrity of the individual dynamic and how seriously those involved take the M/s dynamic.

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It is very scary living with the fear of losing such a 'mate'. Actually loosing one must be a feeling far exceeds any disappointment of never finding one. When tied so close the very thought of being untied for reasons out of your control weighs heavy in your heart and spirit.

Ok, this hit me RIGHT between the eyes. The above statement is SO strong inside me that it is almost interfering with my ability to fully enjoy my relationship with my Master, and I'm honest to God at a loss as to what and how to fix it. I SUCK!

Sincerely sorry about that.

It was only meant to reflect us and how I feel. beth quoted it to give perspective to the 'die first' challenge.

Oh my no...please don't be sorry or anything....its just when i saw that staring back at me in print I went "Holy shit!  It was like a light bulb went on...and I KNEW that is what the "fear" I have in me is from....NOT that Master will "do" anything really...but that "something" will happen. You know...like waiting for the other shoe to fall. I need to figure this out, because I WILL NOT live the rest of my life in fear...I just won't. I CAN'T.

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wow old thread....for a minute I thought Bob was back.......

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It's funny until it happens.

You might consider that I am not the only one to have lost a loved one.

Tred softly.

id bet almost everyone on here has lost a loved one .....me included

id bet most of them saw i was jokin........in fact id bet all of them did

ill guarantee your grief at the loss of a loved one is no greater than mine is.......and if you dont find a sense of humor and the ability to move on, youre gonna be miserable for the rest of your life......

and id imagine if your dearly departed slave was half the woman you imply she was, she would be very sad to see you acting so pityful and all at something humorous....

dang, speaking of rights, a lil late, but ill exercise one now.....the right to remain silent.....maybe you should try that one some day



ps....its TREAD softly....and something about carryin a big stick i think

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It is very scary living with the fear of losing such a 'mate'. Actually loosing one must be a feeling far exceeds any disappointment of never finding one. When tied so close the very thought of being untied for reasons out of your control weighs heavy in your heart and spirit.

Ok, this hit me RIGHT between the eyes. The above statement is SO strong inside me that it is almost interfering with my ability to fully enjoy my relationship with my Master, and I'm honest to God at a loss as to what and how to fix it. I SUCK!

Sincerely sorry about that.

It was only meant to reflect us and how I feel. beth quoted it to give perspective to the 'die first' challenge.

Oh my no...please don't be sorry or anything....its just when i saw that staring back at me in print I went "Holy shit!  It was like a light bulb went on...and I KNEW that is what the "fear" I have in me is from....NOT that Master will "do" anything really...but that "something" will happen. You know...like waiting for the other shoe to fall. I need to figure this out, because I WILL NOT live the rest of my life in fear...I just won't. I CAN'T.

you're right.  you cant live your life in fear.  last year in may, i never thought i'd face loosing Fallcon. it never entered my mind at all.  in august when he went in the hospital, no.  in september, when they said "cancer" and "surgery"?  not again.

in november, when they told us nothing was working?  that's when he looked at me and made me make promises to seek again, to not follow him, to honor him by living.  and apologised to me for not keeping his promise to outlive me.

so i kept the promises, and have Daddy in my life and things are better again, but no matter how much i love and adore him, he isnt Fallcon.  life goes on, even when you think you cant any more.

kitten, reaching for the tissues

Ok...this made me cry...LOL....the fact that I'm on my cycle isn't helping either   I am SO glad you were able to get through that difficult time...and for sharing your experience(hugs). I am STARTING to relax into my reality...  begining to accept that this is NOT  "Too good to be true"...that I DO deserve a "healthy" love in my life.... I also get the Daddy my heart has been looking for

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• Poke out their eyes and skull fuck them.

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wow old thread....for a minute I thought Bob was back.......