erasmic -> RE: Why do leather Masters/Daddies always want multiple partners? & more questions sure to upset!!!!!! (11/2/2007 7:47:15 AM)
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i'm finally coming out of the leather closet at 45 and after having "scenes" most of my life, now trying to find a bondage Daddy or MASTER. Problem #1 Why do the real ones into the scene always want sex parties, multiple partners, use the boy in demos, suck his friends off, etc. etc. i want one freakin' Daddy or MASTER not to sleep with the whole city! Leathermen don't seem to even try for monogamy, it's like a free-for-all. it takes me a LONG time to trust someone after bad experiences i've had and i find it hard to get to know someone when they go out 3 times a week, either to the bars or a leather club, etc. like they always have to roam in packs or something. Problem#2 sure to piss people off. If i meet one more "real" leather guy who lives in a trailer park, drives a shitty car, has a drug addiction or alcohol problem and a crappy job, i think i will scream! why does this kink world attract those lower on the totem pole. don't get me wrong i'm 45 years old, no spring chicken plus hiv to boot. i'm no prize but how can i respect a MASTER who is worse off than i am. How is he supposed to own me and run my life when his own life is a freakin' mess? Problem #3 sure to piss MASTERS/Daddies off i am 45, hiv but damn i try to hold it together, eat right, don't smoke, workout, turn lots of heads for being an old fart, lol! How can i respect a MASTER, for when i look up at him from kneeling at his feet, all i see is his layers of fat? How can i respect someone who eats crap, doesn't exercise, gets drunk every week,etc. How can i trust a MASTER to TPE and to own me mind, body and soul and to run and manage my life when he can't even manage his own waistline??? For a relationship such a MASTER/slave to work for me, i honestly with my whole heart have to believe he IS BETTER than me in all aspects....intelligence, physical prowess, successful career, etc. And believe me, i am not some stuckup snob who lives to shop in the malls. i grew up middle class and here i stay. i need a MASTER or Daddy so bad. i fought the feelings for years but now my new motto is "time to put up or shut up". i am NOT looking for perfection but give me a break. i don't want to share you with the leather community, i think your slave or boy should be more important than going to leather contests and functions. Once the relationship is established and going strong then branching out is more appropriate. i believe so anyway. Problem #4 Why do leathermen think they are MASTERS because they swear at me, call me "faggot", "pussy", etc. that does nothing for my confidence in them. i want one to get really deep inside my head and own it, make me want things i never wanted and to crave those things and to please. That takes smarts and getting into someones head not throwing a bunch of verbal insults around. If that's all it takes than i can be a MASTER too! Problem#5 Because i am looking for a "bondage" Daddy or MASTER for TPE and heavy control i get the guys who find me attractive who know nothing about bondage saying "oh, yea, i'll tie you up". and 2 seconds later the hands are turning blue from handcuffs(my own) being on too tight. so now when i ask a MASTER what kind of bondage equipment he has, and he says a pair of handcuffs and some rope, i know to move on. And when i do, they get pissed and tell me i'm a fake slave or boy. i'm supposed to worship the ground they walk on because they "say" they are a Master. like i said, i need more proof than name calling and a pair of handcuffs. Soooooo, am i hopeless? do i make any good points? or am i missing the boat?am i doomed to being alone and tying myself up for the rest of my life? am i supposed to jerk off to fantasies and photos online forever? After my last vanilla relationship ended(he dumped me), i vowed to never have someone vanilla again. Oh, why did he break up with me? i was addicted to leather, kink, etc. Yea, no DUHHHH! i really loved him, we'd lie in bed and i'd wish he would tie me up, wish he would control me but instead what did i get....a mind-blowing blowjob!!! haha! i want a MASTER that will make me cry, not from pain but from feeling bad when i knew i disappointed him or screwed up. one that will make me cry when i miss him so much when we are apart. one that will make me cry because i am so god-damn happy i could burst! one that will make me cry because my whole soul is beaming yet is totally controlled by him. Oh well i have more to say, but getting tired so the rest of my rants will have to wait..... I have pasted your proposition here to illustrate one of your problems - too many words ! Keep it simple man, no wonder that they want you to suck etc clearly so they can get a bit of quiet E
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