creatrix
Posts: 56
Joined: 12/30/2007 From: Roseville, MI (GO PISTONS!) Status: offline
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It is great to hear everyone's support! Thanks a bunch! One week ago, I was smoking two or more pack of cigarettes a day. the most I have smoked in one day so far is about 10... and that was from a pack of cigarettes I bought last thursday... I gave the others to my daughter and she hid them... and brought em out saturday when we were both feening. Today I have had about 7... smoking only a quarter at a time... actually maybe less than 7. I am amazed that I have actually not broke down and allowed my addiction to kick my ass here like so many times before... I reminded my nicotine habit... looking in the mirror... that I AM IN CONTROL, not it. I have resolved to only smoke a few a day, mainly during the stress/habbit times... like coffee, after eating and before bed... I have yet to resolve when to actually not smoke. But I am looking at it like this: I am making an effort to taper and stop, I deserve to be easy on myself and not beat myself up if I relapse, so I reslove to NOT RELAPSE... Does this make sense? Like with dieting or exercise, I used to get depressed if I missed a day or ate chocolate ice-cream, I'd see myself as a faliure and such. I trained myself to think positively, realizing I am human... and, that as long as I keep trying to do the right thing for my body, I am then, in essence, doing the best thing for my body. I lost 30 pounds like this... and I know I just have to be positive. I smoked at least 2 packs a day for more than 25 years, and at times, even more. from two packs to around 7 a day is awesome. perhaps in another week I will only need/want 3... All I know is that stressful things make me feen. I just gotta avoid stress. I did start exercising today though, and I gotta say, I feel a lot better since that. I am gonna keep on keepin on! :)
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~creatrix~ A slave is to be measured from the inside, for it is her soul that is enslaved, her body simply follows...
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