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kitttty -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:21:55 PM)
I don't recall my profile saying anything unusual.

ownedgirlie -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:26:07 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: kitttty quote: Now I'm not sure what your GPA is but if your LSAT is THAT high then I'd assume you would push yourself to be btwn 3.75 and 4.0 as a GPA. No. I am an underachiever who does not try. I have a 3.45 and dropped out of school for several years until Master made me finish. Do I want to be a lawyer? I guess so. I want to go to law school. My father says I want to avoid the real world by hiding in school. I don't think we should make any decisions based on what I want. I am terrible. Despite having an IQ which is within the top 1%, I nearly failed out of high school. The guidance counselor told my parents not to send me to college because it would waste their money. The other kids and teachers publicly discussed how I would never graduate and fail in life. Which was essentially true until Master corrected this. And its not like I am gifted in some other way. I am not good with my hands (Master is). I am not some artist. I am just a technically book smart person that doesn't even do well in school. I also spent over two years being unemployed after I left school. I actually have no memory of what I did during that time. Laid in bed mostly. I need my Master. I do not function without him. Just posting a correction. The above quote showed it was in reply to me, except I did not say it. Not sure what happened with the quoting mix up but since that was not something I would say, I wanted to clarify.

MissMagnolia -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:27:11 PM)
You are a Dominant? Who is a slave? With a master? OK, I'm confused.[&:]

insidioustoy -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:27:13 PM)
Seems to me that no matter what anyone here says you are just sitting there saying I'm bad, I'm worthless, oh poor me for not achieving what I don't even want to do. So how is that working out for you? What did you hope to accomplish by coming here and bitching about it? No one can give you a sense of self-worth. Hence the "self" part of it. If you only exist and find happiness at someone elses say so, be prepared to never ever in your life be content with yourself.

Peridot -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:29:26 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: kitttty "I don't recall " ... You could be a politician! [;)]

kitttty -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:32:48 PM)
quote: You are a Dominant? Who is a slave? With a master? Strange. I never signed up as a dominant. Somehow when I deleted my profile, it categorized me as such. quote: No one can give you a sense of self-worth. Hence the "self" part of it. If you only exist and find happiness at someone elses say so, be prepared to never ever in your life be content with yourself. But it seems someone can get me to accomplish things which then makes me feel ok. I have a lot that I squander. I dont mean to and I dont know how.

MissMagnolia -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:35:24 PM)
If you delete your profile, isn't it just, erm, deleted? I'm totally cofused now, so situation normal.[:D]

Peridot -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:37:03 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: MissMagnolia If you delete your profile, isn't it just, erm, deleted? [sm=rolleyes.gif] Hee hee That's the type question they ask on the LSAT!

laurell3 -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:42:23 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: kitttty quote: Also, I want to be surrounded by people in law school who are as passionate as I am about law Man, I think you're the one whose chosen the wrong career. Law has perhaps the highest job dissatisfaction because practically no one is passionate about the law. I'm deranged. I am passionate only about serving the Master. If he tells me to be passionate about law, I will be. If he tells me to call off the applications, I will do that instead. sigh.... this is not a ticket to the big time. Practicing law takes dedication and an ability to actually listen to and sympathise with others. You obviously lack that right now. Don't take the LSAT, get more therapy.....good god.....people attempt to support you and you only talk about how completely superficial you are. If you somehow think getting a law degree will get you a lexus without having any personal skills, think again and hard.

insidioustoy -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 6:50:25 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: laurell3 sigh.... this is not a ticket to the big time. Practicing law takes dedication and an ability to actually listen to and sympathise with others. You obviously lack that right now. Don't take the LSAT, get more therapy.....good god.....people attempt to support you and you only talk about how completely superficial you are. If you somehow think getting a law degree will get you a lexus without having any personal skills, think again and hard. AMEN!!!!!! How one-dimensional can a person get? You said what I am thinking only so much more eloquently and with far fewer cuss words than I could have managed. Good thing you said it before I did!!!

Rayne58 -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 7:30:49 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: kitttty I need my Master. I do not function without him. quote: ORIGINAL: kitttty I'm deranged. I am passionate only about serving the Master. If he tells me to be passionate about law, I will be. If he tells me to call off the applications, I will do that instead. I would have liked to read her profile but it says "not found". I can't fathom not being able to function without Sir - I wouldn't be a very useful sub if I couldn't think for myself [8\|] She sounds like a robot [sm=confused.gif]

popeye1250 -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 7:35:26 PM)
You did yourself a favor! Do you have any idea how many lawyers are out here? Go to trade school and apprentice under a Plumber or Electrician.

juliaoceania -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 8:01:46 PM)
I am reminded of what Joseph Campbell said - "Follow your bliss". It is rather sad what I am reading, because you are not following your bliss, you are following other people's ideas of what you should be and what you should do... What does kittty want? My Daddy has been displeased with me over school stuff, because he knows where my bliss is, what I was put here to do, and he would not let me give up. It was one of the largest sources of our problems that led to us parting ways briefly last summer. You see, I am a degreed anthropologist, a scholar, and I am in the top 5 percent academically speaking. I also suffered from an anxiety disorder that made it seem impossible to go on to do the things I needed to do in order to follow my bliss... but Daddy pushed me, and yes this is a condition of our relationship... those to whom much is given must use it, and he refused to sit back and watch me waste what was given me... the difference between our doms, if my application to one of the top ten schools on the west coast, a school that is in the top five for my discipline, fails... he will love me for at least trying... all he wanted from me was to try.. to try to finish the journey I started long before he met me. The pressure you are under sounds tremendous, and I hope you find your bliss kittty, the thing that you know that you could spend a lifetime doing no matter what anyone said or did to try to convince you that you should quit. I found my vocation, the thing I have to do no matter what, and having the person beside me that sees that I am exactly suited to my purpose is just part of my bliss. Yours is waiting for you somewhere... because it isn't the law, if it were you would not be so wishy washy about it, and I bet your score would have been even higher for that which you innately cared to learn about... just sayin'

kitttty -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 8:24:56 PM)
quote: f you somehow think getting a law degree will get you a lexus without having any personal skills, think again and hard. Are you speaking metaphorically? I don't know what I expect a law degree to get me other than Master's approval. Never thought about owning a lexus. I don't really know how to drive despite growing up in a suburb. There are two things I like about law school, independent of Master- one is the philosophical aspect of legal theory and the other is the highly structured and demanding nature of law school. I like this type of thing for the same reason I like belonging to a Master. quote: What does kittty want? Master's approval. It's not that I want that to be the only thing I want, it's just that it is. I believe the Master will lead me to what I am best suited for and what will make me feel fulfilled.

kitttty -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 8:27:20 PM)
quote: Get a job to support yourself, and take your time to figure it out. I have one now. Master told me to get it. I actually tried to stall this assignment because I somehow felt that I needed to put myself together psychologically before getting a job. Master said having a job would strongly help my psychological well being.

Vendaval -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 8:37:27 PM)
kitty, Please do not beat yourself up any further. Life circumstances will do that with alarming frequency all on their own. You reached for a very high goal and almost attained it. You are now better prepared for another attempt because you know what to expect and how to better prepare. Take some time to write down everything you can remember about the types of questions and any problems you had on the test. Then take some well earned time off and rest and relax. When the holly days are over there is plenty of time to start studying for the exam again. Take good care of yourself, Vendaval

juliaoceania -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 8:37:44 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: kitttty quote: f you somehow think getting a law degree will get you a lexus without having any personal skills, think again and hard. Are you speaking metaphorically? I don't know what I expect a law degree to get me other than Master's approval. Never thought about owning a lexus. I don't really know how to drive despite growing up in a suburb. There are two things I like about law school, independent of Master- one is the philosophical aspect of legal theory and the other is the highly structured and demanding nature of law school. I like this type of thing for the same reason I like belonging to a Master. quote: What does kittty want? Master's approval. It's not that I want that to be the only thing I want, it's just that it is. I believe the Master will lead me to what I am best suited for and what will make me feel fulfilled. I wanted to note that I did not write the first comment you quoted, but I did write the second one.... I hope you find fulfillment in whatever path you choose. I suppose there is nothing else I can say without dissing on your master, and that just ain't cool... you want him to approve of you, that is what you want, and I wish you luck in winning his approval. If you in fact never do win his approval because you are just always three points shy of it, I still wish you luck. I cannot imagine that kind of pressure, lord knows I apply enough pressure to myself.

kitttty -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 8:53:29 PM)
Vand, thank you. quote: hope you find fulfillment in whatever path you choose. I suppose there is nothing else I can say without dissing on your master, and that just ain't cool... you want him to approve of you, that is what you want, and I wish you luck in winning his approval. If you in fact never do win his approval because you are just always three points shy of it, I still wish you luck. I cannot imagine that kind of pressure, lord knows I apply enough pressure to myself. I am always three points shy of approval and I always feel like I really am not trying. Master does put pressure on me and I sometimes resist it, but it has only made me better so far. I realize that a normal person would probably crumble under the pressure, but I seem to crumble only without the pressure. Ex, when Master and I met for the second time, I was probably 112 lbs and perhaps 5-8 heavier than when we first met. He said to lose ten pounds. He asked my weight every few days and would express strong displeasure and say I was disobedient if my weight did not decrease as he wished. I would complain that it would like a long time to lose ten pounds, that my cycles made my weight go up and down, that I might be unable to do it because I was a little older. And Master did not relent for one second- he expressed anger when I did not go down in weight and muted approval when I did. And in about two months I did get down to 100 lbs and I keep it off without difficulty. I feel healthier and more attractive at this weight. Last month, I found hat I gained two pounds and I asked Master to call me fat, which he would not. He looked at me strangely, because unlike me he is not insane. I am not anorexic. I am healthy and make sensible and pleasurable choices in what to eat. I think a normal person would have ended up being anorexic or very angry after such treatment, but not me. The Master works for me and probably only me.

velvetears -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 8:56:13 PM)
You need to get a grip. You have been given more in life than a lot of others who would gladly treasure your abilities and here you sit and whine about a 20% percentile test score and cry about not getting approval. You need to grow up and become independant minded because all the law degrees and education in the world cannot help you achieve the inner peace and stability you lack right now. To me that would take precedence over anything else. Work at a job, gain life experience - heck try out lots of things and find what you like - when you find yourself so engrossed in something that 12 hours can fly by and you don't want to get up to even eat - you have found as julia so eloquently put.... your bliss.

trappedinamuseum -> RE: I fucked up my LSAT. I am going to cry. (12/21/2007 9:17:45 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: kitttty I need my Master. I do not function without him. Really? Seriously? Is that even healthy?

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