heartcream
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Joined: 5/9/2007 From: Psychoalphadiscobetabioaquadoloop Status: offline
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Hey sexyred, Ahhh, I am so sorry for that trauma and drama, that really sucks. It does not sound like you really belonged there. They sound like some gnarly beasts there where you were working. I do think it is really cool that you reached out to get a softer reflection into your personal reality in this time of discomfort, from your fellow CM'rs. From the sound of it, it was all bigger than you. When things converge like this it can be extremely painful. In the end, when I have found myself in similar nightmares, eventually I am able to see how it was all a merciful way to bring other aspects together. When I have had stuff like that happen to me -things that feel stressful and scary, I have come out of it being able to stand up for myself a little better, more able to accept more parts of myself, to forgive myself, and all around find myself in a better place. I would hope you could be as good to yourself as you can, (like reaching out here) while you go through this hard time. Cry, get angry, shiver in fear if that is how you feel. As a good friend has often said to me when I have freaked out, "Breathe, this too shall pass."
< Message edited by heartcream -- 1/25/2008 9:07:03 PM >
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