ThistleDown
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Ok, I know this has been inactive for a few hours *cough* but I have such a bad habit of opening a link and then forgetting about it while I do other things! This one is especially inspiring to me though so I feel the need to bring it back to the top of the list, even if no one posts after me...
It's very exciting to hear from everyone else about the happiness you've found. It helps me remember my own happiness sometimes when I'm in need of a little reminder. (I don’t post a lot, but I lurk a lot -have been even before I joined. I deal with a lot of shyness, hope it’s not creepy).
I have very little experience in the way of relationships for myself but I've seen a lot of other people go through things that scared me away from even wanting relationships. It got to the point where I thought good men were a myth (I only specify men because those are the gender I'm interested in being with, I didn't see a lot of women I thought I would have found attractive if I were interested in women romantically either). I was convinced I would be lucky to find a guy that was only mean some of the time. That's when I found this really sweet boy who wasn't mean at all! I took that to mean he was everything I needed until I realized there's a step or two or ten between being mean and being loving.
He was nice and I probably could have made it work for a very long time but I started to notice that he wasn't as invested as I was and he really wasn't providing me with what I needed.
I had already known the man I'm with now for about a year and a half at that point but I was being a pansy (I was too afraid to admit I liked him, I was sure there must be some deep dark secret waiting for me). Of course he knew it the whole time and he worked with me for a total of 2 years before I finally admitted to wanting to belong to him!
Now I'm feeling similar feelings to those described in the OP but not to the extreme that it could have been if I had lost my chance with him and had to wait an indefinite number of years before finding someone as good as him (for me). He's amazing! I'm so grateful for him. I just can't get over my awe for him and all he's done to be with me and show me his love. X3....
I'm not entirely sure how this is related, but it seemed like it in my head when I was going over it. I hope it's not too off topic. x_x
~Puppy
< Message edited by ThistleDown -- 1/30/2008 12:23:28 AM >
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RE: WTF? - 
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I used to have all kinds of strange ideas about what was good but Master is doing a good job of correcting those thoughts. I still over-react to things I used to consider too kind for the likes of me (like replying to a post. it makes me feel all special and warm inside). I'm very overly appreciative. 
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