LadyPact -> RE: Count the Cost (2/6/2008 9:56:20 PM)
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ORIGINAL: breatheasone Is the high, worth the low? You finally did it....you met "The one" there is ZERO doubt in your mind and heart. Everything about this person...EVEN THEIR FLAWS, are a perfect fit with you. You are going to lose this person(meaning they are going to die)....this person will not be in your life for long....probably less then 10 years.(ok I can hear the youngans saying "OMG 10 years is a LONG fuckin time" but trust me its NOT) Do you go for it? Knowing the loss will be life altering and DEVASTATING, and thats not coming close to how bad its REALLY going to feel. Knowing the hurt thats coming....do you take the joy? Yes, actually I do. Let Me explain. When I first met My sub, it was explained to Me that he was only here temporarily for school. In other words, less than a year from the time I met him. For a little while, that put Me off. How could I think of establishing a relationship with someone that I knew would have a finite ending of his time with Me? Didn't I realize how difficult the ending would be? Why would I set Myself up for that? On the other hand, this sub was such a good fit for Me. We just connected immediately. From the very beginning, his place was just naturally at My feet. As time went on, I knew I had to make a decision on the matter. It took a lot of personal reflection, what I could do, what I couldn't do. Out of the blue one day, I was looking at some cut flowers that I had in a vase. That's when it hit Me. The situation before Me was very much like that vase of fresh cut flowers. Yes, I knew that one day they would wither and die. Still, that didn't detract from the beauty the flowers had. They didn't smell less sweet. The petals less soft. It was then that I realized I wanted to take what I had for today, even knowing what would come tomorrow. It is how I came to name My boy clip, because I knew he and the situation, were just like those freshly clipped flowers. Beautiful today, even if it won't be forever. I hope this helps you in your question.
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