Padriag
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Yup, definitely sounds like frustration. You find all kinds here, and the only advice I can give you is to take it all with a certain sense of humor. It helps not to expect too much from online sites. You never know who you are really speaking too. Yes there are those here living in their heads full of fantasies that have little to do with reality. There are those who are just seeking thrills, they want someone to write them erotic letters they can whack off too (and gender is no discriminator on that). You get some who are so incredibly self centered that all they are concerned with is getting what they want, and once they get it, the rest of us are of no concern. And some of these profiles I look at and you have to just figure they're fake. The ones that really get me are these "new to the lifestyle" types that pop on and two days later have a new master/mistress/protector/trainer... you can almost hear the sound barrier shattering as they rush into that brand new velcro collar. These too I wonder if they are real people or just more fakes putting on a show; and if they are real, I wonder at the oh so discerning dominants who collar these newbies. And that does happen, and I'll meet them again six months from now when they've been burned, hurt, abused, and disallusioned, but maybe just a lil bit wiser for the experience. Sometimes we have to hurt before we can grow. But on the other hand there are good people here too. I've met some really neat folks that I've begun friendships with. I've found people I share a variety of things in common with. There are intelligent, thoughtful, interesting people here... and that they have treated me not only with respect, but some have even admired me, has at times made some horrible days I was having in the real world a bit more bearable. I've had offers to go to munches and events (which I have not been able to attend as yet, but thanks for the thought folks just the same) and even had an offer of homemade cookies! I try to remember all those good things in the moments when I feel a little frustrated or annoyed with this one or that, and it helps put it all back in perspective. Eventually I'll find precisely what I'm looking for, perhaps not here (I don't really expect to to be perfectly honest), but to borrow a few select lines from a favorite poem of mine Serene I fold my hands and wait... for lo my own shall come to me. If you need to blow off some steam, well when haven't we all? Just remember this little aphorism of mine... all disappointment in life is the child of unrealistic expectations.
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Padriag A stern discipline pervades all nature, which is a little cruel so that it may be very kind - Edmund Spencer
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