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KindLadyGrey -> RE: April Roll Call!! (4/3/2008 9:47:32 AM)
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Yay MsC! Congratulations. She will be the joy of your existence, I promise it is true.
Before I get down to my roll-call report, I wanted to throw something out there. I often send care packages to my friends in bootcamp and the sandbox and would be pleased as punch to extend the habit to online friends. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way on the forums, so if I started a thread for people to post mailing information for their boys who are deployed, would anyone else be interested? I know there's the creepy strangers online factor, but I doubt anyone is going to send a severed head, and even if they did, DAMN wouldn't that be a cool story? Ping me on the other side if you'd be interested in that project. We could probably ask the mods to make it a sticky on this forum.
Okay, now for the part about me.
My soon to be ex-husband chased me out of the house with threats and insults, and I am now crashing at my parents' house. This sucks big donkey balls and my pride is taking a serious hit: I'm unemployed, homeless, and living with my parents.
I should stop whining about it, since I actually have very cool digs here. There is a mother in law apartment in their basement and I've taken it over with my two UMs. Not only do I have a decent place to live, but I have a relative amount of privacy and consistent help with the UMs. Still, it isn't mine. It's not my home. I am at sea and not sure where the shore is and it's killing me inside.
I haven't had much private playtime, but my parents are being very cool about overnight visitors. Right now it's all about the cuddles, since I'm very stressed out and having a snuggle slut or 10 makes a tremendous difference in my ability to cope. Still, I better invest in some ballgags if I ever want to play here!
The new UM is almost 3 months old and adorable, and the other is your typically precocious 2 year old. She's doing better with the transition than most kids would, but she misses her daddy and has been a little more whiny and clingy than usual. Also, poddy training has gone down the toilet, sigh.
I'm working my ass off to get a job ASAP and I have several excellent prospects, many of them in public interest advocacy. My plans to go to Law School have been crushed since the decision to get a divorce, but this may be a blessing in disguise. Instead of toiling away for four more years I can start changing the world right away! Cross your fingers for me.
Despite my chaotic life, I have somehow found time to re-enter the BDSM social scene in Maryland and DC. I've been meeting a lot of wonderful new friends, including a few from CM.
If there is a silver lining in this cloud, it's how amazing my friends are, even the new ones. They have gone out of their way to be there for me with cuddles, food, shoulders, ears, strong backs, transportation, help with the UMs, job tips, resume advice, hard cold cash, and all kinds of support whenever I need it. This is rock solid proof that prioritizing my relationship with my friends over mundane things like housework was not irresponsible and immature, but rather the absolute best thing I could have done.
Unfortunately, relationships with the boys in my orbit have faded from that priority list as my life is in chaos. Even my favorite boy hasn't made time for me in a month. I'm a tad upset about it and we'll be having a little discussion about chastity next time I see him.
There seems to be lots of good news about collars lately, and I am quite envious. While I know several adorable boys, I am nowhere close to offering any of them a collar. I tend to take that sort of thing rather seriously though, so I am not in a hurry. Still, with the divorce and all I have been kind of lonely and would like to have someone by my side on a more consistent basis. My relationship with my husband was over a long time ago, but at least we still had some kind of companionship. Now I'm on my own and missing that connection a lot.
I tend to be fairly good at rising to a challenge, so I'm sure I'll be okay, but I am anxious, stressed, and much more emotionally fragile than usual. My life is crashing down around me and I HAVE to get it together ASAP for the sake of my UMs. It's just hard.
Thank god for cuddle whores and snuggle sluts. I would be a lot worse off without them. Taking applications on a rolling basis ;)
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