lalbobbilynn -> RE: The sting of poverty (4/14/2008 3:13:27 AM)
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hisannabelle, Allow me first to say i am quite contrite for the hardships You had to endure as a result of Your dearest Mother's failing health. i can not even begin to imagine the strength that must be instilled in Your very soul to weather such agony. That is the treasure i value most from another, for the time they have afforded me can never be taken away. i am humbly honored that You took time out of Your life and shared such a personal experience with me. Thank You, most sincerely. As for my insight ..... LOL ..... i fear it was unadulterated fluff as i was trying to stay on point, yet unlike You, i did not convey the rhyme to my reason. What You refer to in Your life does make sense to me, as with all things in life, there is a trade-off, as i am sure You are aware Ms. Annabelle. Again forgive me, as i have sat here reading and re-reading Your words for the last sixty minutes. In my dire straits i have no way of side-stepping my explanation which simply embodies that we are NOT from such differing worlds. It was drilled in my head at an early age: You deserve NOTHING; suck it up Buttercup, get Your poop in a group and make IT happen! i also was taught everything i was afforded was by the good graces' of my parents. Now the exception to the aforementioned was my parents detested one another. Perfect window of opportunity for me to acquire any and everything i could dream of. Could we possibly debate right here, right now that i am somehow better then You b/c i had my own phone line at 10y/o, had maids, private ballet/ice skating/softball/piano/soccer/several tutors/band/cheer leading/volleyball/choir/4-H, and had been to every national monument by the time i was 12y/o?? Money does not afford a man with good sense it merely allows them to shroud their BS with various layers! All that You felt You may have lacked (monies) was the exact thing i was trying to get out from under. My world from the outside looking in: ..... Lord knows, that bobbilynn, she hitched hiked to Virginia Beach when she was 14; Goodness, that girl was raped at knife point by a black man in the latter part of that same yr; well geesh bobbilynn's cop/fireman Father put her in an adult mental ward under the label that she did drugs (false), nevertheless, she escaped from a locked ward on three separate occasions only to hitch from Ann Arbor to Chi-town wherein she meet up with some folks who took it upon themselves to burn down the home of the man who raped her, as bobbilynn phoned her Father, asking Him to turn his scanner up .... cause well, Lord knows we would not want to go to court and ruin such an upstanding family (mine); For the Love of all that is Holy, didn't they say bobbilynn could not have children, how did she become pregnant at 15??; bobbilynn, goodness child, i know You are adopted but how can You give Your own child up for adoption at 16y/o??; are You flippin serious, bobbilynn hitched to Long Beach California when she was 17, resulting in her being raped at gunpoint in Kansas City along the way; how ever did she manage to jump from a moving semi??; pleeeease, You can't be serious, within days of locating a childhood mentor, bobbilynn had three jobs, tested and passed thus skipping two grades and graduated with her graduating year at 18y/o; well certainly bobbilynn is welcome back home, we will even throw her a massive party, buy her a car, throw some diamonds at her, and listen to what direction she plans to go; cheese and rice, what is with that child, bobbilynn sold her car for half the value, bought a one way train ticket and a set of luggage, and moved to Virginia Beach at 19y/o; this is just beyond bizarre, why is short, classically trained bobbilynn dancing in a go-go bar (cause i was making mad money, and well ..... toot, toot, white chick had rhythm back in da' day!!)?;You see that older man (9yrs my senior) with bobbilynn, that girl broke her peoples heart and just up and married that man without telling a soul, the audacity of her to deprive her family of a massive Irish wedding; that girl is loco, she passed up the US Air Force, and Princeton (Later Butler University's Physician Asst Program was rejected by her as well) to play house with that long haired hippie man??; this is so gauche!!! Yeah ........ and this is me, finally: Hello, McFly>>>>>> [sm=fingers.gif] ! Sorry ... is late, or early, and my parched humor is in full swing. i digress, allow me to temper myself if You please!! Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiighs ......... i beseech You to tell me You are picking up what i am laying down, Ms. Annabelle?? It all seems logical from the outside looking in, save the one domino missed by all. Being raped by my brother starting at 12 yrs of age put all the above into action. Quite possible monies could have altered Your life for the better, as well as the lack thereof may have prevented my life from being so cloaked. All i can say is folks do the best they can with what they have to work with. As for the: "how can you teach someone hypothetically to be able to manage a stable situation they aren't or don't feel likely ever to encounter?" It has been my experience that i am indeed an example of what can go astray in life; nevertheless, on some level i am doing as You stated: we do what we are used to doing. My ex bought my (our) 12y/o a running, working car last fall! i volleyed back (after four months of saving) with a brand new HP laptop! LMAO, Try as we might we are bound to repeat our past if even in the most minute manner. After that retarded reaction on my end, i respectfully requested a cease fire with my ex! We will see how it all plays out!! **Ironic laugh** ......... and You feel You ramble Lady!! It is in Your sharing that afforded me the chance to share myself as well. i feared my ability to comprehend Your view would not have been seen if i had merely stated: "ummmm, yeah, OK dude, like i so get what yer sayin'!!" i respectfully request that on NO level do You pity me good woman. i loath pity. Better folks then i have been through worse, and soared higher. Such a thing is IMO NOT as rare as You may think. The juicy stories have a more lasting impression. As for bridging that gap ...... i hit the ground running a year ago this month Ms. Annabelle. i am an example to my UM's on a minute to minute basis; right or wrong i may be, i own up to it all. i suppose my point in reflection to Your points is: rich or poor everyone has to pay some sort of price. ***i am no better then You Ms.Annabelle. IMHO we are traveling down the same boulevard, going in the same direction, we just happen to be on differing sides. If by chance You falter, give me a wave, and rest assured i will jump the median and help in any manner within my means, as i hope You would do the same for me!! Again i thank You most, Deferentially~ b.~
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