RE: Goodbye

'I come to praise Michael not to bury him'

I dislike these kinds of threads. In the past, I've always thought they were the function of an attention whore who had outlived the character they created for CM, seeking one last blast before fading out like some distant star exploding in a super nova death rattle; only to be reborn under a new 'nom de plume'. There are just too many examples of that occurring for it not to be the case. However the problem reconciling that attitude to your situation is that you are neither distant nor a created character.

Taylor Swift
Teardrops On My Guitar
~
Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I'm needing
Everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful,
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me,
I laugh cause it's so damn funny
Then I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love,
He's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me,
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes,
So perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She'd better hold him tight,
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone,
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

'Cuz He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up,
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into.

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see

After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And loving someone doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that maybe's aren't contracts
And lets see's aren't promises

And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open

With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child

And learn to build all your roads
On today because tomorrow's ground
Is too uncertain for plans

and future's have
A way of falling down in mid-flight.

After awhile you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate
Your own soul, instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth.

And you learn and learn.
With every goodbye you learn.

The moments we spent together will always be treasured memories. i loved every second of being "used". You are a beautiful Man with a Beautiful heart. i am so greatful i had this chance to get to know You better, and only regret that i was always too scared to contact You, sooner.

Being permitted into You life in such a way that i was, i concider a huge gift, in not only getting to know You!, but also in all that You taught me about myself. As well as those things i discovered about myself, through self exploration, inspired by You.. Your ideas, thoughts, teachings.

Please don't stay gone to long Michael.. i will miss You every single moment away. You know You own a piece of my heart.. that is, for forever. even if i never see You again.

Happy Birthday.. again.. for when that day swings around here soon!

i so wish i had a way, to send the story i'd been writing as a surprise.

my name... is sherry.