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tsatske -> RE: Do you know the one you want? (9/11/2008 5:36:43 AM)
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I want the one I am with.
Master is the most amazing person, the most fantastic man, the most incrediblt Dom, a truly GOOD man, absolutely FINE, and the best match for me i can even imagine in every way except that I certainly do not deserve Him.
Now, for a bit of extra soul searching on the topic. I have felt that way about almost every man who has ever been in my life on a reasonably long term basis. One or two were mistakes, but other than that, I ALWAYS feel that way.
Every partner in my life has been a vast improvement over every partner before them (skipping the aforementioned mistakes), and that is quite an accomplishment, because Hubby#1 was a truly great and wonderful man and human being.
So, then, honestly, if it keeps happening over and over, i guess part of it must be ME, right? if I keep getting these fantastic men that are so MUCH more than I could ever deserve, what part of it is my doing?
Here's what I think on that: First of all, I am patient and have very high standards when I am looking. I would rather go to be alone, unbeaten, for a few YEARS, then settle.
Most of all, however, it is just that I believe it. It is mostly an attitude. The right one for me, the one I want, is the one life, the universe, God, whomever, gives me to and puts in my life. (since I have had one or two huge failures, you may reassure yourself that I also don't settle when I am in a relationship. I know if it is bad.) I just keep the attitude that it is very, VERY good - unless it is, indeed, bad. I know a lot of people who don't. Every small problem is a relationship failing, an example of how much this person doesn't meet their ever increasing, whiny ass needs.
Knowing how to be happy is probably 75% of what happiness IS.
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