tsatske -> RE: Gay marriage (10/23/2008 6:18:49 AM)
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On parent's of Gay children - from the mother of a deeply beloved bi-sexual and Trans child (and, no, i don't keep up a pic of my boys on CM. that would seem a bit non-consentual to me. Although, since I have never seen him enfeme, there are sometimes pics on here of TVs that make me do a double take.) I can't imagine anything that would affect the way i feel about any of my children. My son came out to me on his 21rst birthday. After he told me he was bi (since he knows i am bi, he was pretty sure I would be good with that), he hemmed and hawwed and obvoiusly had trouble telling me, 'something else'. My heart stopped. My mind was racing - what in the world could one of MY children want to tell me that he would be scared to tell me? It occured to me that he was going to tell me he was a pedophile - a 'girl lover' or a 'boy lover' - i really could think of nothing else that would be hard for him to tell ME. I said, 'you know there is nothing you could ever say or do that would make me love you any less', and he just said, 'Oh, I know THAT.' He was afraid to tell me He was TS, because he was afraid my image of TS would be based on my brother (who, in addition to being trans, is just flipping nuts). I said, 'Dear, I am active enough in the alternative community to have trans friends, and none of them are crazy like your Uncle.' He laughed and said, 'Yea, I should have thought of that.' Master's mother has decided I am unwelcome in her home. I didn't do anything but fuck her son (and, no, not in front of her - we didn't even send her pictures) - but I am 'that slut'. <shrug> sie la vie. But when she was yelling this at him, I stood there listening to her, tell her son she didn't care if she never saw him again - i did not endear myself to her. WHen she turned to me and said, 'Do you have something to say to me?' I said, 'Yes, i do. You have raised two fine sons. I raised three fine sons myself. I can imagine absolutely nothing that would make me tell them I didn't want them in my life. I think you are making a mistake.' Of course, it was not so much a mistake, as it was drama - as long as i don't come around, she does still want to see him. But I can't imagine saying those words to my sons. As I told Master - if one of them was on death row for being a mass murderer, and I felt pretty damn sure he did it - I would visit him every visiting day. I told Master, about it being all drama from the DMIL, - she is making a bet. She is betting, first, that guilt will control you, and, second, if that does not work, that she will go before you, as is the order of nature in this world, and you will feel guilty when she is gone if you did not keep a relationship open with her (which I told him he should do, definatly) But, as someone who has lost a child, I can tell you - the odds are on her being right on her bet. But there is no guarentee. Life does not come with a gaurentee. Sometimes you forget to hug your adult child goodbye before they leave the house to go to work - they will be back in 4 or 5 hours, anyway - and they make it a mile down the road, then step off our planet. I just last month went home to Indiana for the funeral of a cousin who did that same damn thing. I hate Indiana roads. My mother has a ratehr conflicted relationship with one of my sisters - the one she lives with. And I have told her, point blank, several times - fix your relationship with T. I have said, 'Mom, if you lose any one of your girls, it will be devastating. But if you lose T, it will kill you, because your relationship with her is not right.' My family is about half fundementalist, and I am out to them. The only stress is that one of my sisters will not let me take my niece and nephew out anywhere - but I am welcome in her house, spend the night with her, we call each other regularly. There are family members much more 'challanging' than I, and none have ever been told that they are unwelcome by family. My mother gets mad when I use this quote, but, as Robert Frost said, 'Home is where, when you have to go there, they have to take you in.' I just can not imagine chosing not to speak to one of my children. Where do these people COME from?
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