mistoferin
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When a person has so much of their self invested in that mode of thinking, there are very few things that stand a chance of kicking them out of that groove and it's usually a fairly traumatic/catastrophic event that succeeds in doing so.
Gosh stef, while I know that for the most part every word you have said in this quote is true, I also know that there can be exceptions. I was one. I can remember a time in my life....a time that I am not proud of....that I was just about the coldest bitch you could ever meet. I was beat down, I was tired and I was angry....so angry I wanted the whole world to die. I didn't confine my hate to any particular race...I hated everyone. For me it wasn't a traumatic or catastrophic event that snapped me back. It was one person...holding out his hand...and willing to take a risk...willing to show me love. He was persistent, he had to be....I had built such a cold hard shell around myself that took extreme patience to chip it away. But he kept chipping and never once closed that door in my face. Just one open door....one hand...one tremendous heart. I know it's a longshot...but I do wish the same for others who find themselves in that dark abyss, for I know the hopelessness of it....but now, thanks to one....I also know the light.
Now don't misunderstand, I am not saying that he transformed me....only I had the power to do that. Just as only Veronica has that power. I guess what he did though was give me a reason to reach, a reason to find the courage and the strength within myself to take the steps. It wasn't easy...as a matter of fact it was damn hard. But over the course of my life I have tried to remember that sometimes it only takes one open door...I try hard not to slam them shut. Now maybe I am a fool for doing so, I certainly do open myself up. But if only one ever comes walking through it....it will make it worthwhile to me. I know that's not for everyone...but it works for me.
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Peace and light,
~erin~
There are no victims here...only volunteers.
When you make a habit of playing on the tracks, you thereby forfeit the right to bitch when you get hit by a train.
"I did it! I admit it and I'm gonna do it again!"
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