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mistoferin -> RE: Fantasy vs. Reality... (2/10/2006 11:06:41 PM)
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i'm really sorry yall... didn't mean to go off like that...
Don't be sorry, everything you said was dead nuts on.
There is nothing erotic about real rape and what I have read in literature doesn't come close to the reality. If I detailed my rape from my perspective I highly doubt anyone would be turned on by it...but it wouldn't be full of sexy erotic tidbits like the stories I've read. My mind was too busy envisioning my body floating in a ditch, newspaper headlines, my family at my funeral, my children with no mother, the pain when my face exploded, the pain when my ribs cracked, the pain oh FUCK the pain, the pattern on the sole of a boot right before it slams into your face, oh my God is this really all MY blood?....try to keep breathing, it would be much easier if there weren't these hands trying so hard to wring the life out of my neck, where is that knife?...hard to see it when your eyes of full of blood, in a car now, where am I going?, car door opening, ashphalt whizzing by, tumbling...tumbling, skin grinding off.....those silly kind of little things. I know...not exactly erotic. The fact that there were penises involved was probably about the most insignificant part of the entire thing at the time that it was happening....it wasn't until much later that I realized what trauma that aspect of it all would bring.
So don't be sorry....you are more than right...if someone has never been there they can not even begin to imagine what it is like.
Fantasy?...yeah right!!! Romance novels? Soap Operas? The rapist ends up with the girl in the end? Well, there wouldn't be a market for shit like that if people weren't eating it up. I guess it most likely sells better than the reality of it would though.
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