Arpig
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Joined: 1/3/2006 From: Increasingly further from reality Status: offline
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That's one of the things that has always prevented me from following through with the suicidal urges, the fact that it might go wrong. I can see me hanging myself and not breaking my neck, and having to slowly strangle, or throwing myself in front of a bus only to end up in a wheelchair rather than dead. I find I can consider the pros and cons of suicide dispassionately (and from some of these posts it seems I am not alone in that). I have always wondered why it didn't evoke revulsion in me, but it doesn't, rather a sort of clinical fascination, where a voice will advocate some method of suicide, and I will very calmly and rationally (or at least it seems rational at the time) point out what the flaws in the plan are. Unlike GT's looking out for other people, to my voices, the more mayhem and pain I cause on my way out the better. As another aside, most of the time, the voices do not advocate killing myself as an end in and of itself, but usually it is presented as a method to achieve something else. Most often it is presented as some sort of method of getting back at my ex (though just why that would be they have never said). Another example is hanging myself in the park, the reason for that would be how much fun the voice thinks it would be to freak out the kids and parents coming to the park in the morning, to find me hanging from the swing set. In fact most of the things they advocate are done so on the assumption that it would be fun, or funny to do. Like I said before, the general voices are nasty buggers.
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