Toppingfrmbottom
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Joined: 6/7/2009 Status: offline
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For me I can be regressed or showing signs of regression at any given moment, it's a part of who I am, I suck my thumb always have always will most likely, with the exception of the time where I was pressured t o stop and I did for a month but I missed the comfort so I started up again. I like stuffed toys I am child like I am very sensitive, a lot of stuff hurts me inside that you'd expect someone who's 26 to generally be hardened against, stuff like seeing a couple of dead baby birds who fell out of their nest and roasted to death on the side walk, or the sad ending of a movie. So for me it was about finding someone who appreciated all that and didn't seek to force me to be something I wasn't, and unfortunatly one of my very first doms ever, * we were online working towards real life* didn't appreciate or like those child like qualities. He was always telling me it's not age appropriate to suck my thumb, in fact he ordered me to stop* an order I ignored* One time he wanted me to act out sexually with one of my most favorite and cherished stuffed toys, and for me if I love it and cherish it and it's my favortiest toy ever, I do not use them for sexual purposes, and when I told him it felt wrong, like hurting someone I love very much, and it's abuse of the bond he was upset that I wouldn't hump my favorite stuffed toy because he said to. It felt bad and icky and wrong and he couldn't accept that, Eventually he did, but he was disapointed, and he was hurt and he made a point to let me know that I was putting the toy before his wishes and it would be tolerated, because he saw it was a huge issue and a no go for me but it was not in anyway appreciated. And that's the biggest thing for me, if something feels icky and wrong to me and I do not want to do it, the guy I am with will have to respect that and not make a big deal out of it, And to me I think* some mind you not all* Daddies get that bond that special friendship with an item that's very close to our hearts more than regular doms would. They want what is good for our heart, what's best for our heart versus, what they want because it was their wish we do so. quote:
ORIGINAL: LILPrincessIzzy Toppingfrmbottom I tried it with other doms I just haven't found the right one yet. I have a LG mind set when I hit my space and every dom I have had just doesn't want to deal with the after care it takes....-sighs- But understand that you dont have to have it but I still wonder what it is like.(maybe cause I am younger)
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