slaveluci
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Repost from a thread dated 10/9/08: http://www.collarchat.com/m_2191738/mpage_1/key_cathartic/tm.htm#2191821 "I'm not sure I reached my "emotional core," so to speak but I had an experience very similar to yours the first time Master and I were together. I had no prior experience with bondage, whipping, etc. I had never been tied, gagged, blindfolded or any of those things. That night when He had me strip, then gagged and blindfolded me and put on the leather ankle and wrist cuffs He'd had made for me and restrained my hands over my head, spread wide.........there I stood with my bare body tied and waiting for my first experience. He told me afterward that He did not hold back. He gave me the whipping/beating of a lifetime and I took it and I loved it. Aways in, I began to sob. As we've never used safewords, He stopped to ask if I was OK or I needed to stop. I can still remember the tears pouring out onto that scarf He'd blindfolded me with until it was soaked and me, barely able to form sentences, telling Him "No, please don't stop. I'm OK." I felt better at that moment than I can describe. It was absolutely the most CATHARTIC experience I have ever had then or since. That's the best word I can find to try to describe it. When it was over, I thought I'd only been bound and whipped for about 15 minutes. It was many, many times that long. I was covered with welts and bruises and had tear-stained cheeks and red eyes but I felt like I "knew myself" better at that moment than ever before. I had finally experienced something I'd always wanted and, most importantly, experienced it with the One I had waited for. I guess that was about as close to my "emotional core" as I've been and it was mind-blowing"................luci
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