sensubmaybe
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I find this part quite telling: "The problem is that after I orgasm and see my self in panties, bra, etc, it is just to humiliating for me to bear, and its just a shock that I have to get out of it. But here lies the problem, b/c as a crossdresser, I also enjoy being feminized." It is understandable to be really desirous of all these things before you cum. The fantasy works when before you cum, it drives you to it, but it sounds like as soon as you cum you start to experience shame about yourself for what you are doing. Time goes by, you recover and then the cycle starts again; cross dressing, fantasizing about being forced to taste your own cum all drive you to cum again. Embarrassment and perhaps humiliation works before you cum, especially when it happens and is driven by someone else. These "shameful" "taboo" desires work to drive your sexual desire, but once it's over, all that is left is negative shame, humiliation, self loathing. Just a thought...
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