BeaumontSubMale
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Ok, first let me apologize by saying that this may be a potentially long winded post, assuming I don't get tired writing it and abbreviate things. Being a submissive male, I am somewhat curious about how some dominant females find themselves being dominant.Over the years I have read numerous books and articles regarding sexuality. It is often written that our fetishes and kinks are often attributed to some sexual trauma in our childhood or in our teenage years. This isn't always the case, but most often is. For instance, I can easily attribute my need for submission and humiliation to my teen years.As a teenager, I used to hang out at one of my neighbors home. It was sort of the "trashy" neighbors that your parents really didn't want you around, but at 14 yrs old I was already experimenting with cigarettes and marijuana, this home was sort of a safe haven to practice these habits. It also didn't hurt that there were five sisters, and one trashy Mom that let us get away with almost anything. There was a Dad, but he was an over the road trucker who was seldom ever around. Anyway, the girls were allowed to practically run wild, and the older two girls were sexually active, promiscuous, and proud of it. I can't recall for sure all the ages of the girls, two were recent high school graduates, one probably a junior or so, one my age and a class mate, and one just a year younger than my classmate and I. Anyway, as you can tell, them Mom stayed pretty busy when her husband came in from over the road. All the girls were cute as hell, tomboyish in some respects, and fun to be around. The Mom, was just as wild as the daughters, and was often hanging out in bars into the wee hours since her husband was never around. Anyway, as I said before, I was always hanging out over there, as did a lot of kids in the neighborhood. On one particular morning I had just arrived over there and most of us were in the kitchen. I always had a crush on the girl my age, but being 14, never had the nerve to express my feelings. Everyone knew it, it was obvious. Anyway, at that time my classmate was just finishing her shower and heading towards her bedroom with a towel wrapped around her, when her two older sisters grabbed her and wrestled her into the kitchen where the proceeded to strip her of her towel exposing her to me. Of course she was furious, and embarrassed that they had done this in front of me. I had heard of crazy things going on like this before in the house, but it was seldom ever done in front of other kids. That sort of craziness was usually reserved for family only. Anyway, my classmate was obviously a little embarrassed about being around me for a while, but as we were all friends, she eventually got over it. I did say this was going to be a long winded thread right??? Anyway, probably a couple of weeks had passed, and I was over there one evening. Everyone was there, including the Mom, one other girl (also a classmate and neighborhood kid) and we were all in the family room watching TV. I could see the girls whispering to each other, laughing and giggling, but I had no clue what was to follow. Without any warning, a few minutes later one of the girls yelled "Now". All the girls, including the Mom, wrestled me to the floor. Wrestling with these girls wasn't so out of the ordinary, as I said before, they were all tomboys and could almost hold their own with a boy my age. Not to mention that there was 7 of them. Had no idea why I was being ganged up on, but since there was always a little "rubbing" going on during this type of horseplay, the thought of being ganged up on seemed like a great time to me. Not being sexually active at this age, a little wrestling and rubbing was about as good as things got for me at that age! Anyway, I eventually found out this was all about settling a score. They were going to strip me down as compensation for my exposing their sister in front of me. Being 14, just starting puberty, the idea of being naked in front of the Mom, and all the older sisters, really had no appeal to me.At 14, most boys are proud of the fact that some development is going on, but not really ready to bare yourself to the whole world. Especially since most the girls were either older, or even more sexually mature than myself. Anyway, I really was struggling at that point, but their was no way that I was going to win. Plus it didn't help that I was wearing a pair of shorts with an elastic waistband that was quickly and easily removed. I'm not really going to go into all the details of what took place, but eventually they had me butt naked, and I was still laying flat on my stomach at that time. The mother was the first to come up with the idea of spanking my ass, for seeing her daughter naked. They all took turns spanking my ass.This really was pretty brutal, and even though I consider myself a moderate player these days, a bare hand spanking can really be pretty intense without a safe word. Anyway, eventually they turned me over, and despite my embarrassment and humiliation, of course I was completely aroused. A couple of the girls took turns playing with my erection as well as teasing me for being so aroused. After completely humiliating me, and having a good laugh, I was eventually given my clothes back. I guess from that day on, despite the humiliation, I have always craved spankings and humiliation by women. I have been in vanilla relationships, and BDSM relationships, but from that day on, I have always craved pain and humiliation.I don't look back at that experience as something that really harmed me, hell, I enjoy who I am! I love serving. But I can see how this experience shaped who I am today.I am curious though, what experiences as a youth could shape a Mistress?? I realize not all of us are necessarily sexually influenced by something in their past? But are there any Fem Doms out their willing to share their stories? Was there something that made you who you are today?
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