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ORIGINAL: lally2
i dont understand how you can feel fear when you trust someone.  maybe someone might explain that.

i mean ive felt knotted in my tummy, my hands have gone clammy once or twice and ive felt some moments of definite anxiety, but i dont ever remember feeling genuine fear.

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ORIGINAL: Smutmonger

Fear of just how close to the edge he can really get-and not break you permanently. And knowing he will.

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ORIGINAL: OrpheusAgonistes
That's a very hot dynamic.  It's absolutely possible to psych yourself in a sense of real fear and trembling with the right threats and props, particularly if your partner is completely committed to selling the scene.  Even smart and intuitive people can get (allow themselves to get) overwhelmed and disoriented enough by a predicament that, even though nobody ever lost control, it still feels like a "What did I get myself into?" moment.

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ORIGINAL: jbcurious

Well you definitely scare the crap out of me...  and not in a good way.

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ORIGINAL: barelynangel

I love power in a Man, power that just comes from him simply from his core of who he is. I want to be close to it but i also am usually somewhat intimidated by him because of it. I love and need a little fear of him, not because i am afraid of him but because i fear the power he has over me and what it does to me. The out of control feeling these types of Men are capable of drawing from me, the helplessness and vulnerability they also can compel. Its sort of i seek protection concept from the one i need protecting from lol.

Anyway, i think fear is the right word for some of it because many times my fear of Men like tis is sorta fear of what i am capable of in terms of my reactions to men who have that power essence. Most men to me don't have that essence. So when i encounter it, yes, i fear that sort of Man in the most delicious way.

angel

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ORIGINAL: jbcurious

No.. I see the humour   Strange how things effect people differently...  You have intrigue and I have Monty Python... (runaway, runaway)

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ORIGINAL: barelynangel

I love power in a Man, power that just comes from him simply from his core of who he is. I want to be close to it but i also am usually somewhat intimidated by him because of it. I love and need a little fear of him, not because i am afraid of him but because i fear the power he has over me and what it does to me. The out of control feeling these types of Men are capable of drawing from me, the helplessness and vulnerability they also can compel. Its sort of i seek protection concept from the one i need protecting from lol.

Anyway, i think fear is the right word for some of it because many times my fear of Men like tis is sorta fear of what i am capable of in terms of my reactions to men who have that power essence. Most men to me don't have that essence. So when i encounter it, yes, i fear that sort of Man in the most delicious way.

angel

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ORIGINAL: barelynangel

I love power in a Man, power that just comes from him simply from his core of who he is. I want to be close to it but i also am usually somewhat intimidated by him because of it. I love and need a little fear of him, not because i am afraid of him but because i fear the power he has over me and what it does to me. The out of control feeling these types of Men are capable of drawing from me, the helplessness and vulnerability they also can compel. Its sort of i seek protection concept from the one i need protecting from lol.

Anyway, i think fear is the right word for some of it because many times my fear of Men like tis is sorta fear of what i am capable of in terms of my reactions to men who have that power essence. Most men to me don't have that essence. So when i encounter it, yes, i fear that sort of Man in the most delicious way.

angel

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ORIGINAL: lally2

whats lefse? - and im with you on what you said

i dont understand how you can feel fear when you trust someone.  maybe someone might explain that.

i mean ive felt knotted in my tummy, my hands have gone clammy once or twice and ive felt some moments of definite anxiety, but i dont ever remember feeling genuine fear.

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ORIGINAL: windchymes

lally, lefse is a Norwegian delicacy, sort of a flour tortilla-like thing made from a dough whose main ingredient is mashed potatoes.  No matter what you do to the recipe, or which recipe you use, it will give you grief, lol.   I declared it evil back over the holidays.  But we still laugh about it.

so its a sort of massochistic ritual to get covered in flour, end up with gloop and no supper  - my kinda cookin'

Like you, I have never felt genuine fear because of him.  I think it's because I just read people well and know absolutely that he would not harm me.  But yes, I have had some very minor trepidations a couple times, not knowing what something was actually going to feel like, or if he slipped I could get burned, or what he actually had planned for me.  But not a lick of fear, no,  because I just KNOW he would not harm me.  When he comes at me cackling and trying to shake me up a little bit, it just makes me giggle.  He hates that, lol.  

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But does it tweak you to find that, every now and then, you're a little afraid of your partner?

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ORIGINAL: windchymes
You know, I think if I had shown true fear of him, he would have thought me a twit.....if I was truly afraid, what the hell was I doing there to begin with, out there in the middle of nowhere where, as he likes to remind me, where no one can hear me scream??? 

that is quite a delicious thought though  - noone can hear our screams - we are completely vulnerable and at their mercy - on some level i do find myself feeling incredibly drawn to that.  but only because i know ive nothing to fear from him as a person - so i can submit and enjoy, which is my prefferance i guess - and yet there is that edge of being alone, in the middle of nowhere with a powerful man who has sadistic tendencies
 
 



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So all I have to do in order to serve him, is to work out exactly how improbable he is, feed that figure into the finite improbability generator, give him a fresh cup of really hot tea ... and turn him on!

(in reply to windchymes)

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ORIGINAL: lally2

  so im meeting a guy in a wood after dark under a full moon and when i think about it now im getting butterflies though it isnt for another month.  being alone in a wood with a big bloke who has designs on me is getting me to the feelings youre describing there.  i know ill be 100% safe with him, i know that, but yes, that power and the mind behind it - its delicious but i can well imagine how ill be feeling while im waiting for him to turn up and when he turns up.