mons
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greeting to all
When I read this it really made my heart break for all of
you. I had fallen in love with a man i thought the world of
he was everthing to me. I was a very young 25 year old
I was babie by my family and I still scare of the dark.I think
he saw me coming. When we went on our first date he was
very dominant I was told I must never wear tight pants and i
was only to be his. He was a brilltant man he was a sciencest
oh he was so much smarter then I ( i know now it was a girls
love not a women's) I had boyfriends before but i never had
any feeling of sexual pleasure but with him at 25 I my first
orgasm i thought I had die and went somewhere lol. I remember
telling my father he remember me of you( that should had
shown me there was something wrong) but he ask me to marry
him I love him so, so much I did not see right. then I became
pregant oh we pick out names, and as time move on he was different
cruel even. He did something I never seen or heard of then he
was jealous of the baby. He would say things like (you will love him
more then me) this shock me so much I do remember begging him
not to leave me but he always said " remember i will always love you.
I meant he brother he told me to tell them i was a graphic artist
which was not true ( one of the signs I did not know to see something
was very wrong) I rremember i spoke to a man and he i thought
had the look of a wild animal and then he chased me called
me every kind of fifhty names he could think of. I ran for my life and he calmed down as i
near my sister apartment. I can not really remember when it happen
but he was to come over to meet some friends he never came I had to wait
the full weekend to find out if he was alive I was three months pregant
so monday I called and asked what happen he just said oh i am not coming back.
I can and never did to this day remember the months of my pregany .
He never came back. when i had my son he still never came back but i
thought if he saw the pciture if his son he would love him as i do ( but ladies
men do not love as we do) we are pregant we love the babies already.
The years went by i saw him three times. It was nothing I did there were signs he was
much older then i and i missed seeing the sign of a man who yes i found out
he did hate his mother. He did this to another woman before me and left her
with a child. I made sure i worked hard for my son. The shame part is a child was hurt.
he broke my heart. For the many, many time i beg him to help with christmas
he had a chagen painting in his home, he just would not do anything.
But everthing has an ending i found out he began to drink and drove and
hit and kill a man. I felt silly gulit that maybe if i had been there to stop him this would not had happen
He will still not see his son. I have forgiven him, hate is a strong emotion to carry around
I am glad i told my son it is a waste to use up so much engry on him ti took time but we
got throught it.
This is for all of the women who have had someone leave you and you wonder why,or
what did i do, trust me on this you did nothing it is usually the man his has problems.
I know it hurt so much but go on cry, listent song what ever you need to get
over him do it and years years you will find yourself stronger then you ever thought.
I know this was a long story i never tell it but some i thought needed to know they are not alone!
best wishes I love me more now then ever
mons/jane
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