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Termyn8or -> RE: Are you mentally ill ? (5/29/2010 1:48:50 AM)
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Aaaaa jin, you expect a prompt response, see mail.
"would you give hand him or her a razor and say "go slit your wrist?" "
That can be a hard question, because if I thought they were really going to do it right then and there I would have to say no. I would wield the implement, but not hand it to them if they are hitting the rock bottom of a manic depressive episode. Some people when they are in that stage are in so deep of a hole that it would be wrong. The presence of the implement is a tool for prevention. You see I cannot control every knife, gun and drug out there. Their decision has to come from within. When I contemplated it myself, it was me who stopped me, and that is how it must be for them.
Now when someone is whiney about life, that is a different story. I've been up all night with people who were on the brink, or at least I percieved that. But I have true scenarios to spell for them, that make those individuals reconsider in a hurry, especially when a gun is right in my hand, waiting to be turned over to them, IF THEY CAN MAKE THEIR CASE. But they never can of course and if all else fails there is always tomorrow. Tell them that you'll go with it tomorrow - maybe. You ain't conviced yet. Tell them how they could be some foreign bitch with five kids, pregnant and about to be deported, no car no money no nothing, three guys raping her every week and the authorities looking the other way, and being a smack addict on top of it so you have AIDS and are going to die and just looking for a high. The TV is your only friend and you are a butt ugly bitch.
Now that's pretty bad, most people don't live down to that, so what do they say now ? You have the strength to scatter your brains all over my house but you don't have the balls to face just one more day on this fucked up planet ? You don't even have one day to think about maybe doing some good in the world ? Volunteer at a shelter or some shit like that ? See who REALLY has it bad. And they ain't looking to kill themselves.
I am fucking good at this, but I have lost the battle a couple of times. It kinda hurts, I can't say it hurts but it certainly doesn't feel good. But I am not satisfied to let someone out of my perview until they are right on the brink. They pick up that gun I will show them how to use it. I can get away with this but, neither here nor there. I will show them the pistol, cock it, and fire it out the window. Then I will INSIST that they put the barrell in their mouth with it fully cocked. Then I will make a move like towards the trigger, saying "How about if I just .....". They will resist, pull the gun out their mouth and maybe scream or something. But then and only then can I say that they are safe to be on their own.
"that could stop them from doing so is a bottle of prescription. Is there anything wrong with that? "
Yes. In my view it is a fate worse than death to be that dependant on a drug. For me I include all of it, but I can't make that decision for others. I will never let a mind altering drug enter my system unles I now exactly what it will do to me. Luckily my recreational drugs are quite familiar to me, and I use them, not abuse them. Mom taught me that I can get as high as I want but my problems will still be there in the morning. She gets smarter every day, even if she just sleeps all day, she is old. Well in respect I must say she is GETTING old.
"Sorry to hear about your financial and health woes. In some situations, you have to wonder if the people who manages to stay sane and happy are the insane ones. "
I have asserted almost the same idea more than once. Even with a fine life if one knows of all the nastiness going on in the world it is hard to be happy. If one sees what is happening to the economy, environment and society it is quite unsetlling. Now I can go get a scrip to make me not care and stay on that for the rest of my life. I will be "happy". But if I burn one nd just have a break from it, and let my mind calm down, I know the problem still exists. But now I can think about it bit more rationally.
That is why my kind does not embrace modern chemistry when it comes to health.
And I have been accused of being a bigot and who the hell knows what else, but I am different, so are my cousins and my sisiter, who I endearingly call my sinister. Maybe it is not that everyone else is different, maybe I am different. I can accept that.
But now this raises the question, since I am so different, is that the definition of mentally ill ?
T
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