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anniezz338 -> RE: What it's not about. (12/17/2010 1:14:31 PM)
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ORIGINAL: WinsomeDefiance
II) If you have given yourself over to be tied up and abused, but otherwise DON'T surrender to anyone for anything else - do you still by reason of a little spanking render yourself magically submissive?
Just wondering how this reality thing works is all.
Ok, I'll bite on this one. From a physical aspect, no. Kinky sex. I don't feel anything makes you magically submissive. Being still at basically entry level, and my age, my thoughts look back and current.
Have you ever kicked around something about yourself that you just accepted as some kind of maybe a flaw, morally questionable, taboo even, relationship issues (all seen through vanilla)?
Then you stumble across something, in whatever way, and say, this is making some kind of sense. Hey, I think like that, that explains that, I never looked at it like that before. I've learned alot of surprising things about myself in the last year that explained alot of past behaviors. And my guts giving it the thumbs up....still.
The relationship aspect draws me the most, the trust, the release of control, the vulnerability, just so much there.
The pleasing, wanting to serve, and achieving that, it's very exciting.
I've learned alot, but when the rubber meets the road, how will it go? Only myself and the Dom that chooses me and I choose him will know (ok, I'll probably have to kiss a few frogs along the way. eh..may be fun..lol)
Submissive or not, I'm still going down the path. I'll find out.
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