littlesarbonn
Posts: 1710
Joined: 12/3/2005 From: Stockton, California Status: offline
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There may be something to the submissive having a regular job and then coming home to work when they get to you. Or maybe it's the person. I don't know. Years ago, I was the live-in slave to a woman who ran a bdsm house. She really didn't ask that much of me, to be honest. She just liked having me around as I was always able to brighten her day with humor, stories or just being there. But I found myself coming home from work, feeling like I wasn't really doing anything for her. So I went into the yard one day while she was doing all day sessions (the place was HUGE, by the way). Because the women who worked there were always inside, the outside was extremely unkept. So I started turning the outside into the aesthetic I felt it deserved. I spent probably four or five days of work outside before I think she finally realized I was out there doing something constructive, not just hanging out outside. I really made that place look great. I really did. But it was because I felt that she deserved more from me, and I didn't want her to feel she had to ask me to do it. I didn't even tell her I was doing it, because I didn't want the attention so many subs crave for when they pull mommy by the dress and say "Look what I did!!!!" I just wanted her to come out and see something beautiful, so that when she finished her work for the day, she could relax in something that would be pleasing to her. This really all stemmed from one arbitrary comment she made when we went for a walk one day where she said "I really wish I had time to make the outside look right." I figured that's why I was there. I made the outside look right, so in essence, she DID have the time to make the outside look right. To be honest, this is the part of the relationship I miss the most. I get so sick and tired of playing the "let me prove I'm real" game, and I just never seem to fit in to the whole bdsm scene thing anyway. Maybe it's just my frustration in this crappy area where I live. Who knows?
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