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Reflectivesoul -> RE: Who *likes/prefers* overweight subs? (5/22/2006 7:09:06 PM)
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ok My two cents...
Fat is a state of mind first and foremost. Yes being overweight can be unhealthy, but there are also a lot more people out there who are technically overweight and lead a more active life than some who are skinny or thin. Up untill last year I was one of those. I would constantly be running around with this person or that person, taking my son all over hells half acres.
I miss all of that and I am working hard to get there again. What stopped me wasnt weight and its not a very easy subject for me to discuss because it still is a huge mind fuck for me. I was layed up all of last year between surgeries and not being able to move much and healing time. I had nurses in my home 2 times a day for dressing changes and for personal care. Hell My surgeon even came to my home because we didnt want to risk me going to a Dr's office that are usually full of germs. What caused it was Necrotizing Fasciitis also known as the flesh eating bacteria. I'm not going to go into details about it because I tried that and ended up deleting it twice cause I dont want to relive any of that experience at all ever. It left me with panic attacks and all kinds of foul problems after it happened. It took me almost a year to get past that and to finally be able to move about without ripping scar tissue.
With all of it being said and done now, I still have occasional problems but nothing like what it used to be and nothing real significant. The biggest thing for me that I'm working on now is getting back into My life. I'm busy as it is but not in a sense like I used to be. I developed diabetes while in the hospital because of the mass amounts of antibiotics that were forced into my system, they were all based in a glucose solution and it overloaded my system to where I cant tolerate sugars much at all anymore, my body just wont do it, so its left me on insulin and with a lot of changes in my routines and life. So its not just scars as reminders that I have its a whole lot more.
Anyhow what this did with weight for me was took me out of being healthy overweight to not so healthy. I dont have the energy I used to have and I dont bounce back from things like I did before this happened. I'm sure in time and with the med regulations and such this will change and its starting to get somewhat better so I'm definately looking forward to getting my life back.
For any that dont like me for who I am now, thats their problem. I still love me and thats all that counts. I may not like some of the things that have happened or where I am at currently but its just a change and change happens, we just have to learn to deal with it and overcome and of the hurdles it throws in front of us, which is what I am doing now. As far as finding people to be with, its never been an issue for me. I'm smart, outgoing, fun to be around and be with, I also dont buy into the whole if you're fat you should be ashamed bullshit. I might be fat but by god when I go out and am looking good and feeling good it shows and I turn a lot of heads *grins* I like that and it just goes to show so much more that its not a fat/thin issue with people its in the way you carry yourself. If you walk around always looking downward you'll never get to see anything or anyone. People notice these things when you walk into a room, they may first see a big girl walk in but they see a well groomed and proud of who she is person too and that in itsself is an attractor for a LOT of people.
Ok this became more like a 1.00 post than a 2 cent one.... I want a raise damnit! For all the big girls out there, dont hide.... be yourself, be strong and proud of who you are! *hugs muh fluffy sistahs n grins*
~RS~
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