tiggerspoohbear
Posts: 19141
Joined: 6/27/2010 Status: offline
|
I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder in June, from my readings here I'm guessing Type II, I also have a whole host of other disorders ranging from major depression to agoraphobia. Just about everything ranging in between. Yes, I'm medicated, will be for the rest of my life. It in no way affects my being a submissive, that's who I am at the very core of my being, one of my most dominant traits. I also feel better when I'm with a Dominant who understands my moods and can bring me to "reason" for lack of a better word. On my own, well, I know it for myself, I don't do well. I'm apathetic all the time, spend most of that time sleeping, have no energy, want nothing to do with most people, closest family and friends only. I can put on an outward appearance that leaves people stunned that I'm like this when I'm alone, but that's the simple truth of the matter. I've learned very well to hide how I feel on the inside. It's a defense mechanism for me, one that's worked well. But my family knows I'm not the same me I was years ago, and it hurts them to see me like this. I'm no longer the happy go-lucky person I once was. Strangers won't notice it because they just don't know me on a day to day basis. Not much else to say, so I'll just end it on that note. Chantal
_____________________________
"RABBIT IS GOOD, RABBIT IS WISE". "I'm a baaa-aaad pussycat".
|