LaTigresse
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Joined: 1/15/2006 Status: offline
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Oh good grief, I have ALWAYS been bossy and wanted things my way. In retrospect I can see that since I did not GET what I wanted for most of my life, up till recently I would just withdraw. When I am free to be in control and feel "myself" I am much more gregarious and outgoing. If I am in a situation I feel I have to act, I tend to disassociate and act a part. I can do that very well, after all, I have had alot of practice. It just makes for a very miserable ME. Until I discovered BDSM I was truely miserable because I knew there was something lacking, that somehow I was different, even when I had everything that was supposed to make me happy I felt empty. Learning to accept myself has been the most spiritually freeing thing imaginable.
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