BeanTwiceOver
Posts: 12
Joined: 7/25/2011 From: Canada Status: offline
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ORIGINAL: stacey4u2luv Number three would have it to the closest. i myself when i had no Dom did not stop me from attaching nipple clamps to myself i would go in the tub actually and spread my legs under the water faucet with clamps attached, sometimes with a butt plug too. haha It is easy for a sub to grab one of her own floggers and stike the sides of his or her own legs etc... On other occasions i would light up candle sticks and drip them on myself. i do not suppose Doms would do such things, but maybe other things. Why do you not suppose? I've never quite understood why this idea seems so weird to people. This came up in a Fetlife thread I saw once, and pretty much everyone was saying things like, "I'm a masochist, so I hurt myself, but a sadist couldn't do that." Why the heck not? That's pretty much what I did when I was younger and in a hungry mood - force myself to take whatever form of discomfort I knew I could actually make myself take (not a fan of discomfort, me, I'm rather known to avoid any and all discomfort, actually) until I'd gotten some satisfaction out of having forced someone to suffer my arbitrary and cruel whims. Over-exercise generally worked best, because I was into sports and that was a type of pain I was used to and would feel too lazy/ashamed to back out of. I wondered for years (and well before I really knew what BDSM was) if this behaviour made me "some sort of masochist." Wasn't until I talked to a few maso friends about how they like to hurt themselves that I saw how our approaches to it and motivations were nearly polar opposites. I don't really do it so much anymore, I guess because I'd be too aware of the mental processes involved for it to "work" now - this was something I did when I was very young and very clueless. I think now instead of watching myself suffer, I'd just end up watching myself watching myself and feeling ridiculous about the "masturbation" attempt. If I had less shame, I'm sure it would still "work," though.
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