Toppingfrmbottom
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I talk to her all the time and I am honest all the time, I have told her a few times I am having a really hard time giving a rats ass about anything, not about taking my meds, not about eating, not about exercising, not getting up and getting out of my home, none about of that , and these are all things I should want very much to do and I just do not give a rats ass about doing it, I am extremely indifferent and yes apathetic to doing them, and she just kind of brushed it off. She asked me what meds I was still taking and I said non I stopped them all and she said why, and I said because I am just really having a hard time giving a rats ass about taking them, She said Well I want you to start taking them again, She said well could you have your bf remind you to take your pills? which is a valid question but that's all she said about the subject.
I mentioned it to our therapist last week and maybe in 2 weeks when we go again we'll address it again, cause I just don't understand why I am not finding it with in me to give a rats ass about things that should be extremely important to me. I should be scared shitless at being pre diabetic, and all the other things going on that a or motivated to change it, and I should want better fr myself than what I am doing now, and I , somewhere in there do, but over all I just not finding that oh shit get it in gear spark.
I used to volunteer here locally, a few different places actually, and I loved it but the situation didn't work out , there's not really anything else really local I can do. I'd have to find a place that the disability bus could take me to and then have the 10 dollars every time I want to go out and I just don't have that. Maybe when it's cooler I will go back to walking and playing with the Goldens and other dogs at homeward bound. I really did love playing with the dogs.
I'll check out what nami might have in terms of volunteering that I can do.
We kind of have to be on the bed outside of sleeping lol, We have exactly the bed and one recliner, so the bed is everything, it's a table we eat dinner there, it's a hang out joint , it's grandcentral hub. But Once the chair is cleaned out* it's constantly full of clutter and flat surface syndrome stuff so you can never sit in it * I could sit in the chair more than the bed, and if I am on the bed, sit upright, on top of everything.
I am bad at looking my best, I frequently settle for going out, or hell even staying in knowing I look shlumpy and frumpy but just am apathetic to the fact, it's something I will try to work on.
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ORIGINAL: erieangel
I disagree with this. I am overweight and very energetic most of the time. On average, I sleep 4 hours a night. I work 2 jobs (1 part time, 1 full time) and have been putting a lot of extra time in on the full time job. But I'm also a homebody. I'd much rather spend quiet evenings at home alone or with a few close friends or with my grand daughter (in fact my 4-day weekend is being spent babysitting).
toppingfrmbottom, you stated you have bipolar disorder. I have that too. For years, I struggled with stability. Sometimes a lack of motivation is caused by depression, sometimes it can be caused by a vitamin or mineral deficiency. There really no way of knowing without you being completely honest to your doctor about what is going. And that really is the only way to get to root of the problem. The internet is not the place to go for help with medical problem. Even the so-called medical sites like webMD should not be used as a replacement for a trained, experienced, professional.
I also found work, even volunteerism before I returned to the workforce, to be the best "medicine" for my recovery. You might want to look into that possibility. In today's economy nonprofits are hurting, not only for money, but for volunteers. You might want to start off by contacting your local NAMI chapter, mental health association, vocational rehabilitation office or even the county health department (in PA the county health dept. has an office of mental health and mental retardation which oversees all treatment programs. I assume it is similarly set up in most states).
And remember: sometimes depression can present itself without feelings of sadness. a lack of motivation, irritability, even an inappropriately happy mood can also indicate depression if it is part of a mixed state. I'm not saying that is what you are experiencing; I am not qualified to diagnose anybody, even in person. I'm merely a psych rehab worker. Only your doctor and diagnose you and recommend the appropriate treatment.
So I recommend:
1. See your doctor as soon as possible and BE HONEST!!!
2. Get involved with the local mental health community and volunteer with them or seek out other volunteer opportunities.
3. Stay as busy as possible--this really does aid in recovery.
4. Eat a balanced diet and if it results in weight loss great, if not, no biggie. A lot of medications cause weight gain and others make it extremely to lose weight. Eating right helps you to feel well and provides energy.
5. Try to look your best at all times. When you look good you feel good. This is even true for us "fatties". Get up every morning and head first thing to the shower, put on clean clothes and make the bed. Do not return to the bed until evening unless you are physically ill. (Well, a short nap, occasionally, ABOVE the covers is OK).
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