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ORIGINAL: metamorfosis
Last december I had some sort of breakdown.
I didn't sleep or eat much during the month of December, and I was under tremendous stress. I was crying akll the time.
I was working 7 days a week
I just listed my symptoms. I did not tell him I suspected schizophrenia. The doctor increased my dose of antidepressant,
I was still feeling really agitated all the time. I wasn't sleeping or eating much, and I had started drinking too much. I was crying at the drop of a hat. I felt like I needed to scream out loud. I had the sensation of not being able to breathe, even though I
knew I was getting enough air. My world felt heavy and constricted. I was obsessed with Arpig and several other posters here. I was scared of getting fired and afraid that my co-workers were talking behind my back, or at least thinking things about me. I remember thinking over and over "I'm going to pass out" and "I'm dying", even though I knew it wasn't true. I had trouble remembering thibgs, and sometimes I had a hard time thinking clearly. My symptoms never included seeing or hearing things that weren't there.
After several sessions she diagnosed me with anxiety, specifically PTSD.
She says anxiety, plus a cluster of symptoms which may or may not be manic depression. She knows there is a history of manic depression in my family and no history of schizophrenia, but she said she was trying not to form any preconceived ideas of what it might be. I think she believes I might be bipolar or have borderline personality disorder, but she hasn't diagnosed either yet. Schizophrenia and the other schizo-type diseases have been ruled out.
I cannot help you. This is way over my head.
It does not help that you already were on an antidepressant. It obfuscates the picture. Was that the only medication that you were / are on? What about birth control pills? Diuretics?
Clearly something is messing with your brain chemistry. The first suspect of course is any medication that you are on. The second suspect is your female hormonal balance; I would have that checked out. The third suspect is your sub nature (you seem to be very sure to be a sub and not a slave); but since apparently you have not had the same symptoms for 34 years and they only started two years ago, I deem this unlikely. The fourth possibility is a combination of the first three suspects.
Your psychologist / psychiatrist seems to be a sensible woman.
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