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cordeliasub -> RE: Sorry, I just have to vent! (Warning: Weight Thread) (2/11/2013 7:22:48 AM)
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I think past perspective has a lot to do with it too. I grew up in a very health and weight conscious household, and when I graduated from college I weighed 118 - at 5'9". After 2 kids I went up to a size 12....then went down to an 8. Then up to a size 14...then back down to a very fit 8 because I was running 2-3 times a day (had no idea that my energy and 1-2 hours of sleep a night meant I was manic). After my bipolar diagnosis, I was put on all sorts of meds and gained 65 pounds in 6 months. They changed some meds, I lost about 12 pounds, but those meds killed my thyroid so I gained it back. Got depressed, quit caring, got up to 212 (yikes!!!)
Right now I am just under the "shop in the big girls' dept" cusp, but I am working on it. It is sooooooooo much slower than it used to be thanks to meds and thyroid, but I am working on it. I have realized that I will likely never be a single digit size again unless I want to obsess for the rest of my life. My goal is a fit size 10-12.
The funny thing is, friends I have who have always struggled with weight think I look great; friends who have always been thin support my losing weight because they want me to be healthy. Honestly, after being thin for most of my life without trying, I had to really work on being ok with what I saw in the mirror.
Beauty is very subjective.
BTW...you aren't the only one who gets jerk mail, rest assured. Last week I got a one word message: fat. I was bored, so I wrote back that I'm working on it with a wink smiley. He wrote back, stop eating, idiot. I wrote back a pretty educated explanation of fats, carbs, metabolism, the most effective way to lose weight, blah blah....and why "stop eating" was actually not good advice (he didn't realize that I grew up with a wellness/exercise physiologist for a parent). I also told him the only reason I responded was because I was bored and educating arrogant asshats amused me. He didn't write back - guess I was too much woman for him in more than one way [;)] [:D]
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