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I'd like to know what the rape hotline people said when they called him back to discuss this as promised. Did I miss that update or did it never happen?
Okay, this was an intense moment for me to be on the phone with the call back. It little weird considering it was women which had called me too. I found myself quickly blurting out that I am into BDSM and D/s... the consensual stuff between adults. However, had found myself in a situation dealing with people that wanted to take a Rape Scene and violate her limits and actually make it more of a REAL RAPE. That the initial CL AD I responded to and got to know her from...we had ended up talking voice, texting, IMing and even went so far to be Friends on Facebook. So both her and I had a real look into each other's lives. This was all about keeping "it real". Anyways, I had responded to this other CL AD...which was very similar in terms of NSA hookup deal. This is where the turning point happened. When I realized it was for the same girl. However there was this 3rd party "k" involved setting things up. This "k" character was pushing for way more than what I knew this girl could deal with. However, I played along with him. Fishing him out. Which was a bit dishonest on my part. Still none the less, I was trying to figure out just WHO and WHAT the fuck he was all about. So I actually played him.
I knew that this girl had had a legit MILD Rape Fantasy. Which it was just that a Mild Fantasty, her and I had talked voice about what MILD actually met. This Dude wanted to make it intense and over the top. So, I found myself making the sales pitch to the do, that I had the follow through. Just to make certain it was me showing up there instead of somebody else which would carry out this Dude's mission plan.
Now, I had showed up there knowing she really wanted this, however I also knew she had no idea to how extreme this DUDE had plotted things out. I had every intention of attempting to follow through in doing the RAPE Scene because she had wanted it. However, mentally this was not setting right with me at the same time. The Whole Business of doing this to get her out of Debt was a mindfuck in itself. That added more pressure to the situation. It made me wonder just how deep of a fucking Mess or Hole this girl got herself into.
Keep in mind, none of this situation was present in our initial conversations or interaction. Her and I had established a measure of comfort and trust.
So anyways, I was explaining this whole mess on the phone. That I was legit concern for the Grip that these forces had on this girl. Because the debt total that this girl assumed for this other girls drug debt.. was around $4,000 and I knew there was no way in HELL... that me using this GIRL 1 time would pay off that debt.
I was legit concerned and freaked out over what this girl got herself into. All of this... All of this... Keep in mind was not on the table to begin with. Her and I had built enough trust and established that we both were real people. Mutual kinky interests.
The option was laid out for me to contact Law Enforcement about this shit. I refrained from that, because I myself was uncertain about how deep the rabbit hole went. So I attempted to Fish "K" out some more... I was not going to drag the authorities into a situation which was so questionable.
However, at the same time... this whole situation really truly freaked me out.
She did not realize that it was me showing up that night (according to what she told me), This is what Happened after the Blindfold came off.. by another thread. I had wrote about it. This is why the first things out of my mouth were "Trust Me, Trust me Girl.. I really really like you, please just trust me". Because I suspected if "K" had been truthful and she did not know who was showing up... that I wanted to let her know that I myself was not in on some twisted setup job. She sincerely looked like a deer in the head lights then melted away with a Great Big smile on her face.
This experience is/has been surreal. However, the plot thickens some here. Because of my interactions with fishing "k" out... it's become painfully apparent he shared with her my Bullshit which I was feeding him. So this is what startled her, keep in mind I was expressing to her my concerns over this Dude, and also I was not trusting of something of this story line for obvious reasons.
I sincerely don't know if she retreated, because "K" convinced her that I was out to use or rape her again. I had told "k" that I was up for doing more to her to help work off the $4K debt. (Making a sales pitch). Basically, if he was into it. I would have pretended to have used her hardcore style and reduce her ass to tears and stage it up. Rather Fake shit to help with this debt. Anyways, there's a good chance that this played a role in her retreating. Also, there's a good chance that me being Worried about her and Liking her made her retreat because she had only wanted NSA. There's also a good chance she retreated because I was digging for the truth as well.
Hell, it's probably a combination of all three things.
I do know this, that while my intentions were rather layered in this affair. I violated my Integrity in the process. I was clearly less than honest with this "K" character. I suspect this came back and bit me in the ass. Keep in mind, I also have doubts as to if he was ever was real. If it was not her which I had been dealing with all along. This "k" Character changed his story with me in mid stream.
All the way around... everybody involved Violated their own Integrity (including me). This is EPIC!
This whole affair degenerated into one big bullshit game of mindfucks and crafty bullshit. It makes me wonder what would have happened, if I had not ever responded that that other CL AD??
Anyways, the girl I had talked to on the phone... was not judgmental and rather understanding about consensual BDSM D/s and consensual forced sex and rape play. She understood the differences between this kind of shit... compared to RAPE the real deal with disregard for limits. Along with my concern over a sort of Prostitution for debt. This girl told me she did it because of a mutual interest by all parties involved. I did not provide this "k" any pictures of things! LOL
Hell, I was busy enjoying things with her sanely and she was way way more into things when she discovered it was me. Up until that point this Girl was like a TPE Mannequin slave girl. Extremely tense.
So this was a bit of mind fuck for and I think all parties involved.
"k" had no concept of aftercare and even sub-drop. Which were issues I had talked about with him. I told him that if I brought her ass down to tears and got all intense with her...like that. That I insisted upon AFTERCARE that was part of my Terms and conditions. He was rather clueless about this crap.
In all honestly "k" was probably some acquaintance of her's attempting to set up a rape scene in an extremely stupid and amateurish manner. Not realizing the implications of this kind of Edge Play involved. That he was wanting to get his ROCKS off over this happening to her ass.
This is what I tend to believe more the case now. So yeah...
I should have left shit the Hell alone and not violated my own integrity, along with exposing myself to this madness as well. If I could rewind things. I'd be making a phone call. Letting her know that this "k" was setting up a dangerous scene and situation.. that she'd better rethink what the fuck she had agreed to. That he was dumbass and that this was a poor way of going about things. Instead, I played along and into this bullshit. Like I said, I violated my own integrity here.
I've never been involved in such a crazy setup of a rape scene before. Sure, I knew she was down for it...
I don't know what to make of things. Too many lies all the way around for anybody to trust anybody. Which without Trust. Everything is tanked up and gone to Hell in a handbasket.
I don't trust her nor "k". I know "k" does not trust me and that she does not trust "k"... I think this whole deal left everybody pissing themselves over this level of all around stupidity.
This is a literal intense mess...and I'm reminded of the fact why "Edge Play" is "Edge Play".
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