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ORIGINAL: twicehappy

I know i may be the odd man out but i do believe in forever, maybe because i seem to have a sixth sense about a person's rightness for me.

My Master long since in the wind, i knew was forever from day one, we talked on the phone, he picked me up at work the next day i went home with him to his apartment, we packed his shit and he moved in with me, the next day on Christmas Eve i was tattooed with his "property of" 18 perfect years later he left me to ride his chopper with brothers who passed before him on that highway in the sky. If he had not we would still be together.

I am still heart broken that he is gone and i miss him daily, but his passing was meant to be so i could be led to my next "forever", where i am now with Scooter and Jewel.

We talked and emailed for a few weeks, i flew down to be here, i slept with Scooter within an hour of my arrival, and with Jewel within a month of it, i was collared two weeks later though the decision to offer a collar i am sure was made sooner than that, my decision to accept a collar was made the instant i saw them at the airport, i was tattooed about a month or so after that.

Is this forever? I would not have accepted the collar or tattoo if i was not sure it was.

Can i be positive, many will say i cannot but as one who had a forever i can say i am. To those who will nay say to me i ask can you even be sure the sun will rise tomorrow; as sure as they are of that is how sure i am of forever.

But then again i believe in wood sprites, the gods and goddess, magic, the inherent goodness of mankind, the wisdom that the ancient trees possess, that love is real,and that that beauty and truth abound in this world.

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ORIGINAL: twicehappy

But then again i believe in wood sprites, the gods and goddess, magic, the inherent goodness of mankind, the wisdom that the ancient trees possess, that love is real, and that beauty and truth abound in this world. 

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ORIGINAL: twicehappy
But then again i believe in wood sprites, the gods and goddess, magic, the inherent goodness of mankind, the wisdom that the ancient trees possess, that love is real,and that that beauty and truth abound in this world.

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My questions is why would you go in a relationship thinking anything else ? Isn’t that dooming the relationship to begin with? Why would a submissive/ slave devote her life to another if they didn’t think it could be forever ?

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ORIGINAL: LaTigresse

2X, you made me get all teary eyed ya goober!! Thank you.

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ORIGINAL: Bearlee

twice... I think you're just awesome!  I may have to put that as my signature line!  Well said...  Thank you, kiddo

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ORIGINAL: hizgeorgiapeach

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ORIGINAL: twicehappy
But then again i believe in wood sprites, the gods and goddess, magic, the inherent goodness of mankind, the wisdom that the ancient trees possess, that love is real,and that that beauty and truth abound in this world.

Perhaps that's why comments such as the one that sparked me to write the OP strike me the way they do, Twice.  I quit believing in the inherant goodness of humanity, that love is real, or that beauty and truth abound in the world a long time ago.
 
I have come to see all of it as very transitory, and 'forever' as a pretty illusion that we give ourselves.

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ORIGINAL: PlayfulOne

I am disheartened to see so many cynics abound.  Personally  I would never delve into this level of commitment unless I thought the relationship was going to be long lasting. 

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ORIGINAL: babysburnin

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ORIGINAL: PlayfulOne

I am disheartened to see so many cynics abound.  Personally  I would never delve into this level of commitment unless I thought the relationship was going to be long lasting. 

Being practical does not equal being a cynic.  I would not continue a relationship I know was doomed. 

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ORIGINAL: twicehappy

Perhaps you need to release the hurt from your soul.

Do not think i have not ever felt bitter or angry, losing my Lord hurt me more than any could know, i lost my own will to live for awhile. I have known rape, child abuse and molestation; i gave up a child born of such never to be seen again, i was eleven years old at the time. I have known murder; my brother was murdered before his 30th birthday for two dollars and sixty cents. I have known intimate death, my oldest grandson died of crib death at only three months. I have known jealousy, betrayal and anger, the only woman i ever loved before Jewel did those things to me abandoning her two children in the process.

But i have also felt the majesty and life wisdom of a forest, the sparkle of the sun on the water, the warmth of a granny's quilt, the smell of wood smoke in the mountain air, the joy of a bumble bee's flight, the exhilaration of winning a race, the closeness of brotherhood.

I've had Sonny Barger buy me ice-cream and give me advice.

I have known the sweet scent of a woman on me in the morning and tasted the sweat of a man mixed with motor oil on a hot afternoon.

I have loved many, men and women alike and been allowed to explore the depths of their minds, the wonder of their hearts.

I have felt the sweetness of babes at my breast and witnessed the birth of my grandchildren into this world in person.

I have experienced the miracle of the gods sending me not one but two people to love me when i thought my world was dead, my heart broken for eternity.

I have rode and felt the wind on my face, the throbbing thunder between my legs. 

My advice to you, go out with a two year old child, get down on their level, and look out through their eyes. Take a walk in the woods and see if you can grasp how amazing it is that life abounds on this planet. Could you even begin to make a tree? It seems to me that life has robbed you of the ability to experience wonder.

Look around you, for every evil doer you meet go look for someone who does good. You will not have to look far, try your local soup kitchen where folks give freely of their time to others. Go to a SPCA and see how many spend their lives in the hope of saving one abandoned animal.

Sit down and just breathe then ask yourself; how and why does this work?

If you close yourself off from the possibilities then you will never really have been alive.

A poster said to me on another thread and it holds true here:

"I could have skipped the pain but then i would have missed the dance."

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ORIGINAL: twicehappy

I've had Sonny Barger buy me ice-cream and give me advice.

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ORIGINAL: hizgeorgiapeach
Do we not all generally go into a relationship thinking "This is the one! This will last until one of us dies of old age. It's gonna be Forever" ?