marieToo
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Joined: 5/21/2006 From: Jersey Status: offline
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Sometimes a feeling cannot be squared away with logic. True, but sometimes it can so why not try? Ok the cunt stitch. The other day, when I happened upon that thread. I wanted to post "Jesus H Christ, will you people stop at nothing for a thrill? This shit it sick". And then I think, but why isnt it sick to get my ass beaten so badly that I have welts and bruises...I mean....I see the hypocrisy in it. But somehow I just done see taking a whipping as nearly as "extreme" as tailoring a cunt shut or even a portion of it shut, or smearing feces on my body. I dont really have a clear answer for myself on why this is sicker than what I like to do. Healthwise, I doubt its a good idea and it probably risks all kinds of possibilities, but even if we hypothetically remove that possibility, I still see it as sick or at least "sicker" than the stuff that I have engaged in. The fact that its consentual, doesn't cleanse something for me. Im not saying this is right or wrong, but if I view something as over the edge, its still over the edge for me, even if its not being forced upon someone. Again, the why I view my stuff as just semi-sick and someone else's as sicker.... I think there is a certain line where kink turns into barbarism. But who is to say where that line is for each person? Not me. Not Jane Doe, not the man in the moon. we have to define it for ourselves, then if we are to look for the logic in it, what can we come up with? I guess not much except to say that certain things are just kinky or deviant, and others are simply gruesome, to some people of course. Im sure we could all make a list of the things we've heard of and put some on the 'this is ok" side and others on the "this is sick" side. Few would admit this I suspect however. I personally cant deal with the cunt tailoring. Why? Because I have a belief that our orifices are open for a reason. I think there are certain practices, ie, the stitching of bodily holes, the probing of the ureathra etc, where we are just completely disrespecting our bodies and the health that we are blessed with. I mean what if someone consentually wants their eye lids sewn shut? Is that sick? Maybe they enjoy it. But damn, thats still sick to me.. I think it boils down to each person having certain lines they won't cross. For example, someone who is into very mild spankings might take a look at someone's ass after a severe beating and shake their heads thinking its just crazy. Then someone like me wouldnt flinch over that, but would flinch over something like sewing a mouth shut for the night. To take an example out of DeSades "120 days of sadom", there is a laundry list of horrors in it that was never expounded on. (If anyone is sickened by gore, please stop here) The one that scarred me for life was the idea of pulling out someone's teeth, then replacing each one of them with a red hot nail being hammered in to replace each extracted tooth. If anyone squicked on that, what would they say if both people were consenting to it? Its sick to me. Maybe sick to you, sick to ladyjane, but fuck if theres someone out there who might engage in it and call it "dental play". Would it cause infection and great pain ? Yes, but hey, we're all "RACKies" now. lol. I dont know if Im making my point very well. Its all about a personal line in the sand. And while one person maybe open-minded about something, they could consider the next thing just too over the line, entering into "sickdom". quote:
To me, what I do myself is sick quote:
I've been there. I am no longer there. I've gone through a process and discarded what I was fed by society for most of my life. That was 'my' process. It worked for me. It may work for others. We don't have to buy in to what's being sold to us as a bill of goods. As far as me wanting to be comfortable with myself. I havent been doing this for some 20 years. I can count on one hand the number of men I have been submissive to and been in relationships/situations with. And the hardest time I questioned myself had nothing to do with enduring something physical on the order of what we were discussing. Yes I would like to see my own kinks as not sick. I dont know if I ever will, but I wonder what is wrong with me. Why did I turn out like this. I dont curse it. I really dont. Im glad Im built this way. But I cant say that I dont think its twisted and that I dont question it. Im not struggling with it nearly as much as I used to, but Im still not perfect with it yet. I still see it as twisted and perverted-- something out of the norm, but it is, isnt it?
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marie. I give good agita.
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