KeirasSecret -> RE: How submissiveness feels (12/23/2006 7:28:45 PM)
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The feeling I get when I am being submissive is similar to the feeling I get when I am driving alone and I see a wild animal, such as Moose. It’s a tingly feeling, an excitement. I am in awe. For the duration of time I am in its presence, time stands still and the only two creatures on the whole planet are the moose and myself. I can't help but to have respect for something that invokes that kind of feeling in me. When I am asked a question or told to do something and I don’t understand what is required of me, the feeling is relative to a near miss. There is a panicky feeling, I stop thinking and wait in anticipation for what will happen next. The way I react to whatever that is, is an instinctive impulse. Being told to do something that is troubling to me or if I do something that makes Sir unhappy, is equivalent to actually hitting the moose. The more troubling the order, or offence, the worse the accident; it’s an “Oh, shit!” kind of feeling. I start shaking, my heart races and all I want to do is make things right; get through it alive. Regardless of whichever kind of occurrence happens, when all is said and done, I am left in a peaceful calm, understanding just how small I am in this word. It is a very humbling experience.
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