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justheather -> RE: As a submissive what is your biggest fear real or otherwise? (2/1/2007 10:47:15 AM)
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ORIGINAL: KatyLied
I'm sure it's freeing to live that way. I'd like to find a place where that would be comfortable for me.
Well, it's incredibly freeing...and scary.
And once you let go of your delusions and your eyes are opened, you cant run back to cling to them when things fall apart, because now you know they arent real. And to cling to something you know isnt real, well, eventually, it becomes pointless, so you have to just let go. You have to just be in that moment with nothing to hide behind.
And that, my friend, that is when the beauty part happens.
If I may...
THE BEES
by Anne Marie Cusac
I'd heard about it
So the day the swarm
attached
Itself to the siding
I went into the yard
stood a long time
where the brush pile
wrecked the grass
The swarm
kept churning its insides out.
Where was the yellow?
There,
like little lights turning off.
Then, thinking hard,
I slipped
my arm in, one of the more
surprising things
I'd done.
But the sensation
of reaching into
a loud solid black
ball that turned out to be
just air
kept tricking me, as if finally
I'd let myself lean into
a loved body
and the loved voice kept entering
through my ear
and skull and shoulder bones
until the voice
and my hazardous
need to feel it,
were the pressures that made my breath
come in and leave me, were
the urging under my blood
that would never end as long
as the voice kept
sounding,
and I grew anxious, because
if the voice stopped
I might shut down like an unplugged
machine. But
there was no loved
body to catch me
just air
between my fingers
and the voice
I dropped through
and the black
hard cool insects
that didn't sting me.
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