desertdancer -> RE: length of spanking... (3/20/2007 12:09:45 AM)
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ORIGINAL: desertdancer Seems like no matter how long thay last, they never last long enough.... * Sigh* Care to share why you feel this way, what happens to you mentally and physiclly? Oh sure, why do I feel this way..... Mentally I go through stages of spanking feelings. The first is normally "how dare he?" this is when I feel like hitting back, where I'm not still and quiet yet in my head and my mind says, how embarrassing it is to be spanked. Next is an "oh shit that hurts" where I regester what is happening more physically, and where I realize that it's gonna hurt more if I continue to struggle, so then I have to fight my own will to make myself settle down, take it and be calm. This normally brings tears and whimpers with a few wiggles. Untill I can get myself under controll. Then I settle into the spanking, where my mind is quiet for a bit and I relax into the rythem and sensations, the sound of his hand smacking on my rump or thighs.This can make me giggle, like the more he spanks the higher I'm lifted untill I'm floating. If he continues to spank at this point, I'm in sub space heaven, but if he's tired and stops then I come crashing down before I've reached whatever high I was trying to reach, this can cause an angry reaction in me. I can reason that I shouldn't be angry, but for some reason, it's a true anger that can take a couple of moments to get ahold of. It's like I wanna strike out, just so he'll spank again so my body can acheive it's goal. I fight myself to not do that though... So you see, no matter how long he spanks it's never long enough.... if he spanks a long time, I get higher and higher and more floaty, if he stops, then I'm not floaty enough, and let's face it, spanking is just yummy.
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