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spanklette -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/8/2007 8:03:43 PM)

I was lucky enough that someone stuffed the red pill into a piece of cheese and I swallowed it without knowing what it was. There wasn't any introspection. There wasn't an inward battle over what I wanted. I got a taste and never looked back.
 
I don't regret that I am who I am.
 
So, if I would have had a choice, eventually I would have taken the proverbial red pill...but I might have eyed the blue pill for a few minutes.[:D]



Devilslilsister -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/8/2007 9:22:59 PM)

i'm glad i took the red pill............... just another step in the road

the blue pill would of never gotten me where i'm going



Texy -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/8/2007 9:42:28 PM)

what a GREAT thread.
i'm on that edge about to take the step over and it has occured to me that i won't be able to back. but really, are we able to go back? from any experience in life? the answer to that for me is no....even if i resume an old relationship it's never the same at it was because people are in different places than they were before. it is dawning on me there is no going back ever...just a continual movement forward.
what the hay, i'll just jump.

gayle



WhiplashSmile -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/8/2007 9:45:41 PM)

Damn... I've been going through life taking both pills.   In short BDSM is a core
part of who I really am.  Even if I pop the blue pill it does not last for too long.
The BDSMer Dom inside of me always manages to slip out of the closet.
Blue pill Sex always evols into Red Pill scene play... 
Blue pill power exchanges turning to Red Pill D/s dynamics...
Then one day your partner realizes they did not get a blue pill popper..

It's pointless for me to even try popping the bill one cause I always manage to go back to eating up those Yummy red ones...



Sinergy -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/8/2007 10:14:13 PM)

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ORIGINAL: missturbation

Metaphorically speaking i didn't take the red pill for a long time although i recognised the need for it in me. There may be times i wish i had never taken it, but i have to say those times are far less often and far easier to deal with than the thoughts, emotions, feelings of lacking something were before i did.


I have a limited time in this place, in this reality, in this whatever.

I refuse to take the easy way out.  I want to know more tomorrow than I know today.

Sinergy

p.s.  I wrote some for a book I started in 1994.  It has been a long time coming.  What gets me through it are Harlan Ellison's words that "Writers take tours through other people's lives."  The only real difference here is I get to take a tour through my own life.



Emperor1956 -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/8/2007 10:32:13 PM)

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LaTigress:  Sometimes I wish there was a pill for normal, whatever that is.


There is, LaT.  But you wouldn't take it.  You know why?  Because its that same little pill that millions swallow every day.  The pill that lets little girls ignore those "wrong" feelings they have for the neighbor girl.  The pill that lets their brothers pretend they don't wonder about the "cute" guy in gym class, and instead go out and bait and bash "queers" to show how UNqueer they are.  The same pill that lets them go to work every day with the stench of the crematorium working overtime in the neighborhood.  The same pill that lets them not wonder where their Jewish/Gypsy/Armenian/Tootsie/B'hai/ neighbor disappeared to last night.  The same pill that lets them go to bed at night thinking "Well they were gonna blow us up AGAIN, so its ok to kill them first.  Besides, the president told me so."

THANK GOD I never took the "normal" pill.  You wouldn't either.

E.



sleazybutterfly -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 4:17:25 AM)

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ORIGINAL: Emperor1956

quote:

LaTigress:  Sometimes I wish there was a pill for normal, whatever that is.


There is, LaT.  But you wouldn't take it.  You know why?  Because its that same little pill that millions swallow every day.  The pill that lets little girls ignore those "wrong" feelings they have for the neighbor girl.  The pill that lets their brothers pretend they don't wonder about the "cute" guy in gym class, and instead go out and bait and bash "queers" to show how UNqueer they are.  The same pill that lets them go to work every day with the stench of the crematorium working overtime in the neighborhood.  The same pill that lets them not wonder where their Jewish/Gypsy/Armenian/Tootsie/B'hai/ neighbor disappeared to last night.  The same pill that lets them go to bed at night thinking "Well they were gonna blow us up AGAIN, so its ok to kill them first.  Besides, the president told me so."

THANK GOD I never took the "normal" pill.  You wouldn't either.

E.


Very good way of putting it.



Wildfleurs -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 4:59:41 AM)

I've never regretted my desires or orientation at all.  I don't see myself as being deviant, abnormal or strange.. its just another (important) facet of myself and I'm glad I discovered and explored it early.

C~



BondageTopJere -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 6:03:44 AM)

This is something of an interesting question for me as I've wished for the"blue" pill on many occasions in the past.  The real question though, is not so much wether or not I took the red pill or blue pill, but what is the reason why I've wished to take the blue pill in the first place?

If I would've ran across this question a year ago, I would have said because I had doubts and uncertainty about BDSM and my own nature.  A series of unfolding event in the last few weeks has cleared those away, and in hindsight, the real reason as to why became clear.  Namely, a lack of a successful relationship in the past, vanilla or D/s. Lack of success is a fertile breeding ground for all those things that caused me to question myself and to be fair, I'm still not 100 percent sure what I want from a relationship. 

So answer to the OP, Yes, I wished I had taken the blue pill.  Life wouild have been easier to some degree.  Now I don't, it just remains to be seen wether I can suppress my own apprehensions, frustrations, and impatience and not let them taint how I see BDSM and myself  until I do find myself in a relationship. 



Padriag -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 7:34:37 AM)

Interesting thread... so many with regrets, so many feeling powerless, lamenting the cost of their choices.  Delusions.

All choices have costs, nothing in life is free.  This way is uphill... so tiring to walk... but oh the view you get.  That way leads into the valley... such an easy stroll... if you don't mind the muck.  Take any road you please, they all take their toll... and the only real questions is whether you can afford the fee.



CreativeDominant -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 7:35:48 AM)

This is a great question.

Since I walked away from the wreckage of my marriage...bruised and bloodied and numb, but alive...I knew that part of the reason was having had a few of the red pill experiences.  In the last nine years, I have kept taking that pill and for the most part, not regretted it.  But there are times, like there are with other things in life, when I wish I had not only stayed with the blue pill but found either the purple pill or the normal pill.  Luckily...or unluckily, depending on your viewpoint...then I remember those other things in my life wherein I had wished for a different outcome and I realize that life is what it is.  I can make me a better person, I can work to change a submissive...and at least, you are starting out with someone who welcomes control and guidance...and in doing the first, I can change my professional life and my personal life and someone else's life BUT I cannot change life itself or those people who deal with me but only on a peripheral level.



KaineD -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 7:36:28 AM)

For me, there was never really a choice.



LaTigresse -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 7:41:02 AM)

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ORIGINAL: Emperor1956

quote:

LaTigress:  Sometimes I wish there was a pill for normal, whatever that is.


There is, LaT.  But you wouldn't take it.  You know why?  Because its that same little pill that millions swallow every day.  The pill that lets little girls ignore those "wrong" feelings they have for the neighbor girl.  The pill that lets their brothers pretend they don't wonder about the "cute" guy in gym class, and instead go out and bait and bash "queers" to show how UNqueer they are.  The same pill that lets them go to work every day with the stench of the crematorium working overtime in the neighborhood.  The same pill that lets them not wonder where their Jewish/Gypsy/Armenian/Tootsie/B'hai/ neighbor disappeared to last night.  The same pill that lets them go to bed at night thinking "Well they were gonna blow us up AGAIN, so its ok to kill them first.  Besides, the president told me so."

THANK GOD I never took the "normal" pill.  You wouldn't either.

E.


E, you are correct. I wouldn't want it. Plus I have heard vicious rumours that it does not go well with good red wine or dark chocolate. That just won't do, not at all.......[:D]

I was just having a "feeling sorry for myself" spell after dealing with difficult family members, filing taxes and a stomach bug (probably caused by the difficult family members and taxes.........). Normal is not a bad place to visit for short periods of time, just not a place I can live.

LeeAnn



sambamanslilgirl -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 7:44:47 AM)

i regret that i didn't find my submissive side sooner instead of later.



hereyesruponyou -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 8:23:39 AM)

In many ways i do mourn the missed opportunities i am sure were out there had i discovered this life sooner.....then again all the experiences i had before the red pill made me who i am now, and i think make me more confident and sure of what i want and need. No real regrets though



IrishMist -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 8:27:07 AM)

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ORIGINAL: Padriag

Interesting thread... so many with regrets, so many feeling powerless, lamenting the cost of their choices.  Delusions.

All choices have costs, nothing in life is free.  This way is uphill... so tiring to walk... but oh the view you get.  That way leads into the valley... such an easy stroll... if you don't mind the muck.  Take any road you please, they all take their toll... and the only real questions is whether you can afford the fee.

I like the way this was said.



jauntyone -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 9:49:10 AM)

Greetings
 
I admit that for myself, there was no choice given; or if there was, I failed to notice such. I simply followed my heart and my instincts in regards to life and what it had to offer.
 
I wish you well
 
melissa



denika -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 10:44:01 AM)

I put off taking the red pill for the longest time. It was always there, out of the corner of my eye I would see it, from time to time I would even pick it up but  not knowing exactly what was going to happen when I took it I was always a little hesitant, my life was far from 'vanilla' but I was still not truly aware of what was going on around me, or that there even was a community.  When I finally did take it, wow........it's been a rush, to say the least. I have learned more about myself in two years than I have in 20.  I have no regrets. I took it just at the right time in my life.

I beleive in Karma and fate and any sooner or any later and I would have missed the right window. Not to mention Rob and I were in the right place in our life.

denika



SirDominic -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 10:54:36 AM)

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ORIGINAL: IrishMist

In all honesty, I wish I had never been introduced this; yet, on that same note, that also means that I would have missed some of the best times of my life.


I am startled by the number of responses similar to yours irish. Attempting to interpret this kind of answer, what I am getting is not so much a regret about being in this lifestyle, but more of a regret about the opportunities lost by not taking the other path. Is that a fair assessment? Not just asking irish, but all of you who question your decisions. Don't you all think you would have felt the loss of the fetish path not taken if you had chosen to stay vanilla?

Namaste, Sir Dominic



junecleaver -> RE: red pill or blue pill... (4/9/2007 11:05:23 AM)

I feel like I took the red pill without realizing the consequences.  Sometimes I think I was too young to even realize those consequences, but then I was old enough to recognize my attraction to the red pill.   I hear a lot of people say, 'If I had known about BDSM at your age I would have probably made different life choices.'  It makes me a little nervous that BDSM is influencing my life choices, even though there are a million other things that influence my choices as well.  To be honest, I would probably be attending a bible institute on my way to being a missionary if I hadn't chosen to dive into kink.  It was like the key that opened a door inside of myself.  I know a lot of people don't use BDSM in that context.  For me, it has allowed me to work through so many guilt issues and self-image problems and in general just pryed open my mind. I cannot say I regret taking the red pill.  I wish that I had decided a little later in life with more information, but I am happy with the place my decision has taken me.  I do wonder what my life would have been like had I decided to take a different course.  I wonder who I would be and am still kind of amazed that experiences and circumstances can shape us so differently.



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