charmdpetKeira
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At the point where I was unable to even think clearly, I was despairingly frightened. I didn't seem to be worthy or helpful. I REMOVED MY OWN COLLAR. In this lifestyle, it is damnation. I will pay for the rest of my life for this. Holy sheep sh_t, the punishment for such an act can’t be “damnation”; and what do you consider to be, “damnation”? Personally, I don’t believe there is a “place” with the name “Hell”. quote:
Any personal issues aside. I completely failed at service. I recently needed to ask for release, the relationship I was in, became harmful to me. While I would agree that the relationship is over, I feel I learned a lot from it, and do not regret the time I had with him. I would also point out; I have not given up on finding my Master, so I can not say I failed. I just haven’t succeeded yet. I prefer not to tally up my score card, until the game is completely over. At which point, I’m thinking, I will not care what the score is. quote:
I failed two loving people because of my fears and insecurities. I lost their trust.and their love. I did not know how to serve. I'm sorry. It has been my experience, if something is meant to be; it will happen. If you have something, you loose it, and despite your best efforts and sincere intent, does not come back to you; it was still meant to be, just not the way you had hoped for. I find in situations like this, there is usually some. “life” lesson to be learned. If you decide to look for one, try not to exclude the possibility it has very little or nothing to do with the fact that you removed your collar. quote:
The world should know of my ways, and I warn them of people like me. The fact that you came here, in this manner, makes me think you are probably a good person, who may have made a mistake; maybe not. Sometimes are instincts tell us things that are hidden from our view by emotions. Best wishes, k
< Message edited by charmdpetKeira -- 6/10/2007 3:35:55 AM >
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Life is tough, that does not mean it isn't fair. There is no wrong choice, only consequence.
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