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secret life style - 2/29/2008 11:00:38 PM

chrisl

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     Any other women out here involved in a sub relationship outside your marriage? About 2 years ago I was food shopping and encountered the most captivating man. We started chatting in an isle and before I knew it we were outside in the parking lot kissing just blocks from my home. I couldn't explain it. We just weren't kissing he had my hands held tight behind my back up against my car. His other hand was inside my blouse squeezing my breasts. I was lost in the moment, confused yet lusting like a teenager in heat for this man. We stopped after being noticed by more than one person. I was scared to death someone I knew would see us. My life would then be over.
He tells me to follow him in a demanding tone saying nothing else. In five minutes were in his home. I'm stripped of my clothes just feet from the foyer door. He takes my hand leading me to his bed room upstairs where I'm told to lay on the bed and wait for him. I'm probably getting carried away w/ details but long story short we make love like crazed rabbits for a lost period of time. I never came so many times in my life as that day in his bed. When it was over he reaches into his nightstand and brings out a pait of handcuffs and some ropes. I'm cuffed to the headboard and my legs are each tied to the bed posts.
   He leaves the bed, dresses telling me He'll be back later. I'm in a panic knowing I have to pick up my kids at 3:30 at the bus stop. He returns like two hours later around 2:30. He stands at the foot of the bed and takes several pictures of me. I beg him to fuck me again telling him I soon have to leave to pick up my kids. He laughs telling me I'll be released when he's satisified. My wish is granted, I'm fucked silly to the point of mind rapture. That was the first time I was ever fucked while in bondage. I'm released with just minutes to spare and told to return tomorrow same time. I left still not knowing his name.
     I left out many details but their not the point here. My delima is this has been going on for nearly two years now once to several times a week. It's progressed a thousand times past that days events. My husband who I love dearly doesn't know and I 'm feeling increasingly guilty and surprized he hasn't found out. Having come home in conditions you might imagine. I've hinted to my master about ending our fling which resulted in an arguement and boarderline threats of exposure. Over the past two years hundreds of pictures and movies have been made and just not w/ him. Others were involved in our relationship as I was loaned out on occations but we won't go into that.
   I feel as if continuing the relatinship is risking everything but the time I have away from home is addicting. I know I'm just being used as a fuck toy but again the scene is addicting. Should I just say it's over and hope for the best possible out come. Or continue the affair hoping he'll eventually end it and find someone else?