jlf1961
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Bipolar disorder is not as rare as many would think. As long as I am on my meds, I am a fairly stable individual.
Another myth is that all bipolar people are violent, which is not true. I tend to get angry at myself, rather than those around me.
I have maintained healthy Dom/sub relationships since I quit the dope and booze and actively sought professional help, the present therapist is not my first.
The last time I was in a relationship, I left Key West and she did not want to leave because she wished to stay close to her family. I understood, had no bad emotions, i.e depression etc, and we are still close friends.
There seems to be two schools of thought about bipolar disorder, medicate the patiant to the gills so they are unable to experience emotions, OR, everytime they give the impression they are on the verge of a crisis, stick em in a ward somewhere.
Personally, I always thought that therapy was supposed to help you cope with problems. Last year I made it through the death of my mother, I have actually begun talking to my younger sister, (without fighting) and am attempting (if dad will stop changing his damn number) to mend fences with my father who disowned me when I enlisted in the army rather than following his plan for my life.
I have some emotional problems that are being treated by medication, and hopefully a therapist I can relate to easier in the near future. One of the primary ways I keep myself from stewing in my own problems is working with 3 organizations here that, in my opinion need all the help they can get. The rehab center needs volunteers to work with autistic and physically impaired kids, habitat for humanity needs people to arrange donations and professional volunteers, and the local SPCA needs someone that understands horses.
I also help out during blood drives... I cant donate, due to the meds I am taking.
The very worst thing, IMO that someone who has any impairment can do is sit around and stare at four walls. I have tried talking to the dogs, but they just look at me funny.
Now, it is said that insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result. Well, it is just as insane to do nothing.
Besides, what is insane, really? Is it running around trying to earn a dollar and putting off the dreams you still have from when you were a kid, and being miserable?
Personally, when you think about it, understanding I have a problem, dealing with that problem in ways that keep me from dwelling on ALL my problems seems to be a much more sane way of living than robbing peter to pay paul and praying that you can make ends meet in a world that seldom makes any sense.
I cant change the fact that I am going to be taking medication the rest of my life. That really doesnt bother me.
However, I know schizophrenics that you would never know had a problem since they are on meds, at least six people that have suffered violent psychotic breakdowns, who are stable, as long as they take their meds, people you would never realize ever spent a minute in an institution, until they told you.
My saying I am crazy is my way of saying I have a problem and I am dealing with it in a constructive way other than harming myself or others.
Insanity would be if I refused to deal with the problem and ended up harming myself or someone else.
Now, if having bipolar disorder is some reason for me not to live a full life, in a lifestyle that does not conform to the norm, I have not been told.
I do know that a) I have never found it satisfying to inflict injuries that leave scars, cause injuries requiring hospital care, draw blood, play with knives to mark someone, or some of the more extreme forms of the lifestyle, and b) One of the first rules I give a sub is that she has full permission to make damn sure I take my medications and if I seem to be pushing to hard and appears to be heading for a manic or depressive episode, she is to contact my sister immediately.
Funny thing is that the successful relationships with in the lifestyle I had after seeking treatment has had that rule, and I have yet to find a sub that will not follow it.
As I said, it would be insane for me to deny the problem and not deal with it, but, the fact that I do accept and deal with the problem and showed me a way that leads to a new level of trust on both sides of the relationship has actually been a lot more rewarding.
Trust is something that a bipolar individual must practice in order to survive. It would be worse to hide the problem which cant be done very well, considering the medication and the therapy sessions.
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