came4U
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Joined: 1/23/2007 From: London, Ontario Status: offline
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Geez I wish I had seen this pages earlier...I skimmed now because my eyes are killing me. quote:
In actual fact as most people know i'm not really that into emotional connection anyways. I get that! and I am sure many don't understand it. Service is not about romance (to me at least) or emotional connection nonsense. Some people (not sure if that is how you feel) just enjoy being in their own state of mind even through misery. I know I do. Having things around me that make my life easier and that pamper me only hinders me. Hard to explain. Emotional attachment? geez louise people, some people even marry the man of their dreams and end up scrubbing floors for absolutely no appreciation and daily for that matter. Many grow tired of their spouse within months or even years...yet stick it out. On that note, it takes a BIG man to be able to handle a gal with such tone/note of coldness to her. Most men I know of want a woman to be in adoration, admiration or in love with them. This defeats the main object of slavery in general. To give, to a total stranger, your all, with as much vigor as you can is true slavery IMO. If your Master is faultless and so full of love, how can he, why would he even treat us like the lil heathens we are? That to me, is a vanilla who is just a sick bastard and a low self-esteem. Imagine such trickery as using words like 'love and respect' to gain full influence over a girl, how utterly cheesy. Full slave service is just that...SERVICE, Nothing more, nothing less. If I wanted a bf with no scruples who is just an asshole, easy to find lol. A slave is not always a smiley pile of adoring goo. Nor is a Master. A Master would use enough force as to not break her so as much as possible could be done and for longivity-sake. I used to love to read romance novels (loooooong ago) where the Viking found his slave bla bla it was a long battle to get them to get along, she fights him, he has to dominate and become more harsh, eventually he misses her, she misses him..and voila, they love eachother and become *cough, equals. (insert gagging noise here). This was the point that disappointed me...hated the endings, no more chaos and enchantment, vulgarity or abuse. Bla. I get what you are saying and possibly thinking. I have thought the same thing and if not for my um I would have done the same thing. Hard to explain the need to be exploited without having to need a pat on the back or without hiding nickles in your sock. I am not sure if it was my need for any dismissal of responsibility of action and thought or if I truly just enjoy feeling small, measly and for lack of another better words--drowing in misery. It somehow makes me feel alive, reflective and without hesitation for a need for careful thought and action...aka, letting things fall as they may. The only comparason I can think of is 'extreme' devoutees of any given religion, that are slave to that religion and only that religion. This type often starves, fasts, goes cold, hungry, works endless and tirelessly for that proposed 'God' and feels the misery is for a better good of themselves and those around them. Am I on the wrong track here with the OP? It is so difficult to explain a wanting for slavery in its deepest and darkest places without all the dungeons and dragon jargon of fantasy world people who still include being taken to dinner and movies or shoe shopping as rewards to such slavery. Can't put it into words, but I do get it, OP.
< Message edited by came4U -- 11/20/2008 2:50:18 PM >
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It hurts.....that you call me a masochist
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