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Tavane -> RE: Do many dominants truly enjoy "service submissives?" (2/10/2009 12:29:39 PM)
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To QueenIsis: It sounds like we'd be compatible, except that I'm too old by many years, and don't have a female body, just a small one, though I took female hormones for awhile, back when I was considering becoming a female, and have large pecs, so can fill out an A cup bra, but without clothes, it doesn't look much like breasts, since it's mainly muscle, and I haven't worn a bra in years. The biggest change with the hormones was fat on my hips. I hadn't anticipated that, and have never been able to wear suits since then, since there isn't room for my hips. I've had to wear sport coats and slacks, so I can buy slacks large enough for my hips/butt. I am so small-boned that I've always had to lift weights to have an upper body large enough for men's jackets, and I have to wear a woman's leather jacket, in a medium. I'm overweight now, so can wear men's sport coats, even though I dont' lift weights these days, but if I dieted, I'd be too small for any men's jackets. They are larger than when I was young. That's one reason I had no problems when I went to the Cleveland Clinic to explore gender change. They normally really discourage that, but took one look at me and seemed very enthusiastic. I said I didn't have any idea of what being a "woman in a man's body" was. I only knew that it turned me on like a billion watt light bulb to be feminine, and I wanted to try it. The psychologist actually would put aside my fears. I'd say "I don't know about becoming a female. I really like to play golf", and she said. "Well, you can play golf as a woman." I only went dressed as a female once, to see the psychiatrist who would approve the hormones, and he looked at me and said "You're not a woman?' and I said "I'm not even feminine. That's why I'm here." I was amazed that they were so willing to change me into a female so quickly. I was anticipating lots of resistance. This was back in the mid-late 80's. I encountered none of this "having to live as a female for a year" stuff, or anything. They put me on hormones and I started putting fat on my breasts and hips, and my nipples got very sore, so I called and they said that was very normal for a girl going through puberty, and not to worry about it. It was too much for me, so I stopped going, and taking the hormones, but had put on that fat, which is permanent. I sometimes wish that I'd gone through with it, but I liked having sex with women, and had a girlfriend; and it kind of overwhelmed me. I still kept becoming feminine getting my ears pierced, all my facial hair removed and, having cosmetic surgery in 1992 to have a feminine nose and chin, and after that I've always looked like a woman. My size is part of it. If I dieted, I'd only wear a size 6 or 8. I'm almost 5'8", but for some reason have the bone structure of a slender female. It irked me when I was young, that I had arms, legs and shoulders like a girl, but I was a good athlete, and had very defined muscles, so never got teased abgout it.
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